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Thursday, June 26, 2008Y

i realli dun mean it...

i'm just not cut out for it rite from the start n i knew it.
i'm not a gd decision-maker.
i'm not firm enough.
i'm shldnt haf tried being one.
i'm responsible for these undisciplined staff.

i'm not out to make you the devil oic.
neither m i crafting my image as the angel.
i'm trying. believe me.
but some part of me just tells me that it is beyond my personality to do so.
probably the boss made the wrong choice and got the wrong person on the bus.

i noe wad's wrong.
i wan to remediate it.
but pple haf stereotyped me.
it's not ez to haf a breakthrough.
n now i noe wad my uncle meant when he did my fortune-telling for the year.
i haf my plans.
but they are alwiz faced with the same problem.
n onli i noe wad the problem is. n where it lies.
sadly, the problem lies in me.

perhaps i shld just revert back to where i started.
probably then everyone will be happier.
n they will be able to move on.
i'm the limiting factor here.

it's been a long tedious 9 mths.
extreme stress n fatigue.
not to mention the emotion roller-coaster.

shld i tok to boss about it?
shld i continue to kip it to myself?
shld i hang on and werk my wae thru?
or shld i just avoid tis issue and not tink about it?

the cold hard truth just hurts.

ends at 6:40 AM