watched tis supposedly hit movie starring tom cruise todae wif ct, jh, jj n sc...yes it was a flop by steven spielberg...the start of the movie got us all attracted to the mysterious lightning dat kips striking at the same spot...and the 3-legged tripod robots arose out from the crack which widened so quickly....the robots went around the town destroying buildings n zapping pple into thin air....so exciting!! ...n then i knew i was wrong when tom cruise started running n running n running for more den an hour...dun he gets tired of it?? (no wonder jj fell asleep...haa...) everyone seems to be zapped n the town turned into a total wreck ExCEPT tom cruise, his daughter, his son and their car....hmm...unrealistic...there wasnt ani war to start wif....i dun get the title...
it ended up dat tom cruise was nearly sucked into the robot in order for the robot to suck his blood and puke blood out...the previous victims received no help but when it was tom cruise, everyone helped to pull him out...(sc noted dat...haa) he finally managed to blast one of the robot using a grenade...the rest of the robots died eventually as they "could not resist the bacteria on earth"....lame-o....
all was well n his whole family reunited. The end. i literally meant The End to spielberg's career....haa....
fifty-six days.
ends at 11:58 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005Y
community service
it's been a long time since i did community service....hmm...todae's family dae was quite fun....enjoyable....the last time i did comm service was during my jc daes....to old folks' home....never dealt wif youths....nice experience tho...some of the youths r quite guai looking dat u wun noe dey r aniting near offenders...the rest r ah bengs n quite cute looking too....haa....
rained so heavily in the morning n luckily in the afternoon where all the games were supposed to start we were blessed wif gd weather....but i was practically feeding the skinny mosquitoes n red ants there....haiz....it's time i spare some more of my blood....(aft yest's dental appt)...
i was the station master...fer a pretty simple game...asking dem to play within a restricted area...n dey were supposed to do some challenges inside the square....basically wif body parts....
the ferst group came...tis group had one huge family...the only one wif such a big family there...the rest either had their mum or dad...tis one had bros n uncles n aunties etc....all eurasian...
"welcome to station 2....tis station deals wif body parts...."
n immediately i got the luffter i expected...
one of the boys said "which part u wan??" tugging at his pants....
duhz.
so paiseh.
den the fathers joined in to bully me....haa....
the next groups alwiz got pple come kajiao...purposely wan to diao nan me...but some of them r quite fun-loving pple....kip making me luff till i pengz...so cornie....dey play entangle can play until someone gets twisted til i dun even noe how to solve it....n dat guy was almost breaking into two....poor ting....
the telematch part was quite chaotic....everyone was everywhere n no one was listening to the MC...yorklin....n his partner was practically there bai sui....not helping ani bit of the MC-ing part....looks kinda dao too....untouchable...the grps were quite difficult to handle...no one follows instructions...i had to shout til i'm bushed....
hmm...on the way back...the gers beside me were playing wif the guys...n the guys were damn farnie....one guy was using the loudspeaker n acted as if he was the tour guide...n said so much crap stuff dat made everyone luff...n of cos some were pissed off wif him...so noisy....the 2 guys near me were bullied by the gers...haa...poor ting...pulled his belt, hair....clipped his hair up like a ger....tore at his ear ring n it came off....mi n jorg cant help but luff at their lame jokes....
dey lived a life dat was so fun...different from wad i had lived...jorg said dey were more carefree....din cared bout all the restrictions n materialistic life....n i couldn't agree more...i admired dem fer the life they live...dey r realli nice pple....can see dat some of dem realli cared fer their parents....which we mite not see in grads....the counsellors there were also nice pple...all had tis "hao ren" face....perhaps a simpler life would b more enjoyable....hmm....
one of the most meaningful daes i had since i ended sch...thanks to york....
fifty-two days.
ends at 11:27 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005Y
dentist
hate gg to the dentist...scary experience....still rem the one in my pri sch was so fierce....yelps...tis appointment was booked 1/2 yr back....duhz...my appointment was at 11am but onli until around 11:45 was it my turn....argh....
the female dentist alwiz liked explaining so much stuff to me....she asked me whether i wan to put on braces....darn...it's been bothering me...but it's gg to hurt 100%....cost arnd 4k man....n may nid extraction...n nid to put on fer yrs....it realli hurts to b pretty....dilemma....argh....
onli went to polish my teeth todae n i bled like siao....the drilling was terrible...the sound alone sent gitters in me...kept spitting blood non-stop after dat....my gums all becum so numb...couldn't help but tear uncontrollably.....n the dentist asked " r u alrite?" so paiseh...haa...hate dat iron taste in my mouth....yucks...
next appointment....another 1/2 yr later. darn...
fifty-one days.
ends at 12:57 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005Y
rats
Lao2 Shu3 Ai4 Da4 Mi3.
went shopping again todae....wif my mum n sis n bro....OG again....tis time round at chinatown branch....but not too bad...bot somemore stuff...haa...bit aunty-ish place....but hoo cares as long as i bot my own stuff....lunch was on my sis...haa...ate Han's....not too bad...guess the last time i ate Han's shld b during my cpf daes....hmm....bot a blouse...n a pair of heels....cheap n chic.....
the above was not the main topic in todae's blog....haa....
my whole family had dnr tog....beside alexandra village...some zi char stall....quite big....some recommendations frm my mum's fren....seriously....i'm not one hoo's picky bout venue...it doesn't haf to b air-conditioned....i'm ok wif coffee shops....(unlike my choosy bro n sis....) apart from the cats lar....all 3 of us wld lift our legs up when the cats r arnd...haa...pretty farnie sight....
after we ordered our food....we had to see a rat race across a few tables....n den enter a hole in the grass patch just behind my mum.....yucks~~!!!!! spoil appetite....n frm den on....everyone in my family raised up our feet....resting on the ledge of the table....all except my dad....he din realised onli until we were half-way done wif our meal....
"huh...u mean u all raise up ur feet thruout??"
"yar....y do u tink we r complaining dat our feet getting cramps???"
"chey....din tell me! i kept shaking my legs lor...so dat the rat wun get near my feet...."
my dad is just so cute...haa....
soon....it rampered out again!!! tis time the rat did a bigger round.....even passed by underneath my chair....i couldn't help it but scream....disgusted....wad was more duh was when a lil kid in the next table went arnd to look fer the rat aft he had seen it.....omg....it's not ani mickey or minnie mouse u noe~!!!
we chop chop finish our food n left....cant bear to stay there fer a min longer.....my bro even forego ordering a drink....cos everytime he'll wan to take the opportunity to drink soft drinks....haa...too bad....
yucks....the next time someone sing "wo ai ni...ai zhe ni....jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi...." i'll gif the person a box....y on earth wld pple describe his/her love fer someone as dat of a mouse's liking fer a grain of rice?? DuHz......no link....
forty-nine days.
ends at 11:47 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005Y
hair
been wanting to change my appearance slightly these daes...perhaps i watched too mani makeover shows....so decided to color my hair....last week i just cut my hair...the hairdresser dat zm recommended....not too bad....business was real gd fer dem tho it was onli a neighbourhood salon...she kept calling me sally, salene, sharene...until i was abit fed up i told her straight my name was serene....haa....n ct hoo went wif me was known as "sally's fren"....duhz....she attempted to do a new hairdo fer me.....cropping awae all my curls....no wae~~.....i spent hundred over fer it n she's doing it awae fer me....she suggested doing those punk hairstyles which i wld never try....too wild fer me....cannot take it...haa.....i prefer me looking prim n proper bearing in mind i had a reputation to uphold...yep....
went over to kimage sch fer a dye....together wif yh n zw...each of us did a diff color...hmm....aint realli satisfied wif the color i had...but hoo to blame except myself...cos i chose dat color....it's kinda golden brown....but not exactly dat outstanding....my dad said i look like a malay....duhz....n when i match it wif my brown blouse....my notti bro started singing "Wldn't it b nice if the world is Cadbury?" cos he said i looked like a piece of choc.....but worse of all....i can imagine sunday...one of my students wld comment on me being so stoopid to go n color my hair..."will get cancer u noe....." argh...heck....these darn kids....
the guy hoo did my color looked pretty pro....diligently painting my whole hair bit by bit....washing so ever thoroughly...or perhaps he had fergotten dat he had oreadi applied shampoo....he shampooed my hair fer 3 times....twice is understandable....one fer shampoo one fer conditioner....thrice....i dunno fer wad....but aniwae....guess he'll make it big....haa....a few of his colleagues asked him to do rebonding....bking in advance somemore....hee.....
still cant realli get used to my hairstyle....poof....(-.-)"
forty-eight days.
ends at 11:29 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005Y
JB
went JB yest with my sec sch frens...boi...it's realli a hot dae...we met at customs...supposed to meet everyone at 3pm kranji mrt...but turned out dat mi n fk were late...so the rest (zw n hm) went in w/o waiting fer us....hmmph...others (ks, wy, zy) had direct bus there....argh...so two pathetic gers took bus 170 in...
after we got in the customs, we decided to walk along the causewae...AGAIN!!...but luckily tis time round we din had ani baggages....the last time we got into jb by foot was when we were on a trip to penang...n nearly missed the plane....so had to walk since there was a jam...*still rem my luggage was the heaviest....poof* finally reached the shady areas...n man...it was so packed n stuffy n humid....nearly suffocated to death...with perspiration dripping down....yucks...the queue onli inched in bit by bit....guess we spent near to 1 hr there....faint...
as usual my tis grp of frens alwiz spend time waiting....waiting...n waiting....when we reached city plaza...we had to wait fer sc n zw to get their roti boi....den later....had to wait fer them to get drinks....n had to wait fer ks's cousin n cousin's bf to drive us arnd....aft a long wait...finally we made a move...
the guys went to get their games....while the gers just walked arnd....onli hm wanted to shop fer a pair of shades....dark ones wif black frames....tink MIB kind....yep....haa...
soon aft, we went to some ulu places fer seafood by the sea...the journey was so bumpy...n dangerous...i was in the car dat ks was driving...mi n sc juz had to help looking at the blind spots fer ks....cos so mani bikes were racing from beside us....the cars just wldn't nudge or gif wae...2 lanes fer 3 cars...woo....the route lasted fer another hr...(aft missed turns + jams)
the place was pretty huge....n we ordered lotsa food...crabs, prawns, chickens, fish etc....n we all managed to finish dem all....hee...we're all big-eaters....totalling up to arnd RM$270...the place was built on wood...n the 'ground' kept 'trembling'...cos the kids ran about....nearly got sea-sick...puke....
luckily on the wae back....it was quite a smooth journey....no much of a jam...we got back into spore arnd 12....lucky fer me i still had train n bus back home....but poor fk had to take til JE n den take cab home....fer once her hse is furthest awae from where we r....usu if we went town area...she'll b the ferst to reach home...
not too bad fer a small getaway....a very small one in fact...but quite nice to spend time wif this grp of frens la...haa...oh yar...it's oso a welcome dnr fer zw hoo just got back...tho i met him b4 dat oreadi....
forty-six daes.
ends at 10:51 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005Y
interview
interview.
been shopping these few daes...hee...too bz to update blog....
well....went fer an interview dat dae....but no news again...sick of waiting n waiting fer dem to call n no one called back....i'm ostracised as a fresh grad...wad to do...but i haf to complain bout dat interviewer....he's realli too snobbish....
"ok...let's kip tis short n simple so as not to waste time..."
-look thru my resume n certs....-
"oh...so u onli werk fer cpf n dat's it? so.....wad issit dat u wan to tell me about urself or tings dat u tink u will outshine others?"
i blabbered some self intro tingy...y i'm here fer the interview...etc etc....in between i managed to ask him questions on the company...since he wldn't tell me a ting....argh...
"alrite...so we'll call u back..."
lots of questions in my mind lor....wad's the job scope like...the werking hours....ani training or so..
"so when will u inform me?" i asked.
"if u're selected, there will b another round of interview n dey will fill u in on the details..."
dat's it.
it took less than 15 minutes i guess...so chop chop dat i went out not noeing much bout the compani itself....(btw, it was an interior design company in imm...the place was still under renovation....all under whitewash....)
i knew i wun make it...tink dey were quite desperately looking fer pple to fill the job...guess i din fit the bill...haiz...i'll continue waiting....sending resumes....argh....sick of tis life....i gotta hang on...like dey sae...good tings come last....i certainly hope so....been waiting all my life...n it does not apply onli to job hunting....
fourty-four daes.
ends at 11:48 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005Y
korean mtv
so sorrie peeps...cant upload the korean mtv...can onli put up the song...been trying fer daes...too bad u all cant get to see it...if u wan can get it from me...it's a very touching one...*sobz*...guess most of u shld haf seen it b4 actualli....came out years ago...n finally i manage to find it....phew...
btw, been trying to do some upgrading....haa...lotsa complaints man...argh...haven been posting much...haa...so sorrie...cos my life's just too boring...promise i'll put up stuffs if i haf ani interesting updates....(^.<)v
ends at 5:05 PM
dreams
dreams.
was reading on a mag on dreams n dreams interpretation...sounds interesting huh...the famous names in dream interpretation are none other den sigmund freud and carl jung...both had their own views n theories...sigmund freud as usual...a more erotic aspect...wad u dreamt of has sth to do wif ur repressed desires...deals more wif sexual desires...while jung had a more collectivistic approach...the unconsciousness surrounding the society...(not sure if it's accurate...cos it's a chinese mag n i had to do my own translation...hee) i doubt u guys wld wan to listen to all these sci-fi (or shld i sae sci-non-fi) explanations...so here's sth lighter...
mani pple wld tink dat each n every one of us haf our own unique dreams...yesh...true...but here are some generalizations on dream interpretations...knowing wad ur dreams mean can help us to look back on our life...and from there...think abt wad's bothering us n the solutions or remedies dat r available...or dat we can derive frm...
if u dreamt of...
-death- dreaming about death has mostly been regarded as some bad omen...but according to experts, it means an end to a stage or a relationship...if u dreamt of urself being dead, it symbolises dat u r tired of dealing wif pressures in real life and hope to get a break from ur job...it could oso mean a change or rebirth...for eg u hope to find a new job, step into another stage of ur life...on the other hand..if u dreamt of others being dead, u shld tink about ur bhv n attitude towards dat person...wad haf u lost in dat relationship...
-exams- u're facing a challenge in reality...u wish to escape..but cant...therefore ur unconscious state of mind made use of ur anxiety from exams to unleash the pressures u're facing....try recalling the place, the process, the pple involved, ur emotions to better understand the source of ur pressure....
-falling- could b due to muscle tensions...or a decrease in blood pressure when u enter sleep...some biological aspect...however, according to freud, falling from a high spot indicates a plunge in morality..whereas if u slipped, denotes downfall in status, fame, career while led u to feel scared...
-chase- have u ever been chased and ran wif all ur mite and when u thot u found a safe hiding place dat fierce-looking man appeared rite in front of u?? this type of dream links us to the pressure in life....however, the key to explaining this dream is to find out the reason fer the oppression...take note of hoo ur enemy is...if their face is blurred, it mite just b urself...ur morals..responsibilities...could be ur conscience at werk...
-flying- flying in ur dream implies physically very energetic...it could oso mean u haf the power n confidence to resolve all existing problems...if u r not flying too high up, it could b dat ur expectations r too high...things aren't gg as gd as u expect dem to...but freud's followers believe dat flying implies the enjoyment u get from sexual intercourse...n flying high means u haf high sexual desires....well...hmm...
-naked- jung's followers tinks dat naked dreams represents ur repressed desires，the main points are the embarrassment u face and the reactions of others... fer eg...a shy indiv dreams of himself walking naked on the streets but does not appear embarrassed in the presence of others..denotes wadeva he's doing has nth to be shy of...n do not haf to take other's opinions into considerations...do not haf to care bout how others look at u....
-losing ur tooth- according to freudian theory...losing a tooth symbolises sex...the rationale came from adolescents' desires...erm...i shant go into the details like wad the mag wrote...haa...*tis is not ani porno websites k...* others believe dat tis kinda dream denotes growth...since it is part of growing up...
-toilet- unless u're urgent, if u dream of gg to the toilet, it could b due to unhappiness n worries...depending on hoo's in toilet wif u...haa..u could discover the root of ur unhappiness...let's sae if it's ur colleague, it could b due to werk problems...n if it's ur other half, u shld reflect upon urself on whether u haf been keeping lotsa feelings from him/her...
-walking the stairs- climbing up the stairs symbolizes u're pursuing ur goals...while gg down the stairs means u feel dat life is not smooth-sailing fer u...if the stairs keep on continuing upwards, even if u're panting, u still dun see the destination (tink jack n the beanstalk) u shld consider if u shld put in so much effort...alternatively, if u're gg down the stairs n happens to meet ur fren...u've most probably been neglecting ur fren amist ur pursue to ur goals...
-shopping- shopping in ur dreams links to making decisions in reality...u could dreamt of urself shopping happily in the mall n later realise u dun haf enuff money or cards to pay...or regret spending so much...or u've fergotten wad to buy...all the above leads to whether u haf wad it takes to choose wad u wan...
-teachers- dreaming of teachers symbolises dat we fail to reach the social norms, moralities n rules or expectations of others' ...besides, if u're learning sth new in real life...or entering another stage of life..or even attitudes in life...u haf the chance of dreaming of ur teacher....brr... -sleeping room- again tis could b due to ur sexual desires...if u're sleeping in ur parents' room..it could denote ur views on ur parents' views on sex...which could affect u...
well, all of the above r taken from Pi Magazine Apr 2005...must put reference..haa...not too sure if i've translated dem correctly...but ruffly there la huh...all the interpretations r quite general...but it does help u to reflect on ur life...n dey mite gif u some inspirations on how to resolve the problems dat r bothering u...fer those hoo alwiz dun rem wad u dreamt of the minute u open ur eyes...hiakz...u can rem...just try to recall...shld b able to recall at least a fraction...n sometimes when u dun dream at all...it just shows u dun haf enuff sleep!! haa...
dat's all folks, *poof* hard werk....had a nice dream last nite...ooo....hee...take a gd nite rest tonite....~*swit drims*~ (^.<)v
thirty-eight days.
ends at 4:20 PM
Friday, June 03, 2005Y
stroke-less
Stroke-less = worthless.
one impt ting i've learnt thruout the 3 yrs in uni is dat alwiz look at tings from different aspects, different angles...sticking to one view will narrow down ur perspective...."wad we can see makes us blind to wad we cannot see"....unfortunately, not all can do dat...in fact it's a tuff job...i tried but failed...just at dat instance of fury or anger, one can onli see wad is known to b 'obvious' to us...n just cannot b bothered with the opinions of the others....
i certainly dun like the feeling of being stereotyped...argh...how on earth can i change dat image?? the positive side of me is alwiz camouflaged by the negative side...y do pple onli rem the bad tings n dun tink about the goody goody me?? i must admit i'm not one hoo's good at showing my feelings and emotions...perhaps becos of tis reason i haven gotten ani 'strokes'...be it bad or good...since it shld be a reciprocal tingy...*shrug*...according to eric berne, he used the word 'stroke' to refer to the nid for touch....i'll just generalise it to recognition such as a smile or nod in the head...strokes can be pleasant or painful, verbal or non-verbal....it can be punishment or praise....it is these strokes in life dat makes one feels valued....n by now u shld b able to detect my sense of worthlessness....dey alwiz sae....learn to show ur love fer others....easier said den done....guess i'm realli a boy in disguise...since guys r taught to hide their feelings more...i do dat most of the time...not becos i'm some hypocrite....but dat i lack the skills to show...i tink....in fact, i feel dat showing ur feelings can b quite pretentious at times....some pple show their emotions or thoughts just to let others recognise their presence n to receive the reciprocal feelings which dey call love....simply makes no sense to me....
to me, love shld be unconditional and mutual...it shld not b a 'becos....therefore...' ting....not everyting needs a reason....dat's y i feel dat it shld all comes from the heart but not from actions alone...if only we had an translucent heart where pple can read our feelings easily...it's not like when u try to get into the gd books of others n successfully get ur wae...dat's not exactly wad others feel about u...but actualli how u manipulated ur actions to influence how others feel abt u....dat's sth very underhand i wld sae....these stroke-giving habits just cant werk on me....
the absence of strokes denotes dat i'm as good as invisible...(n indeed wad i m now...grr...) it gives me more room to imagine and to assume....of the worst...which is no gd i noe....the reactions of others simply mean wae too much fer me...i tend to read more den wad is plainly shown....haiz...realli dunno if dat's a plus or minus pt of me....it could oso b due to my easy-gg character...(how nicely i put it)....everyting i oso dun mind....perhaps dat contributed to my ideas n thots not being valued and taken into consideration....it's alwiz becos of others n not becos of me....argh...i dun haf much opinion abt almost everyting becos i dun wan to trouble others...i dun like to b picky or wadeva such dat pple haf to go the extra mile fer me....dun dey get it???!! my good intentions alwiz turn out as ill ones....i'm so being framed by myself.....*sobz*
i dunno how well u guys r following but i just wanna whine....it's okie if u dun...cos it makes perfect sense to me n helps me clarify my doubts....*grinz*....but den again...i'm probably bottled up in my own world....n din get to the see the whole picture...except onli one of the parts...perhaps i'm being too focused dat i've neglected how others sees it...i dunno...i'm just living dae by dae hoping dat each dae will pass faster....leading a meaningless n boring life....i'm not sure how long tis 'ordeal' will last...but i definitely hope soon....(>.<) p
