wow~! got an email regarding tis nlb mobile library bus...whether our school service users will benefit from it!! so cool!! definitely some students will benefit from it! n so convenient...dun haf to travel to nearest library....just take lift downstairs to the library!! kool~
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Tuesday, April 29, 2008Y
poof...just finished a long essay of all the happenings n unhappiness with the 2 irritating teachers for boss....he wanted everyting recorded....duhz....MIA for almost a week! cao genk lor....haiz...MC la...Leave lar....wad's next??
so excited bout the new PDA dat i received...heh...one of the first ones to get it! heh....still charging it...but it's so cool to haf a pda arnd.....thot the design wasnt realli nice....
had a great day out at pasir ris park with my class! again! haa....last week we went climbing....the web ting....W pulled a stunt when he adjusted his pants (as he alwiz do...) while balancing on two ropes....amazing! most of them enjoyed the satelite-like merry-go-round todae....i liked it too....oops =X....but had to push them lar....arms so tired...n the sun! was scorching hot....i turned red....hope no one falls sick tmr....eh...mabbe not...haa....aniwae tmr gg to do flowers fer mother's day!!
hasnt been quite a happy week....mum was pretty upset wif mi n my sis....haiz....long story....but it was our dad's bdae lor....n it kinda spoiled the atmosphere.....haiz.....
boss finally broke the news of my supervisor leaving to the other staff...via email....some of them were quite shocked....oh well....these few weeks just feel very odd toking to my supervisor....he suddenly had his own clique n hardly toks to mi n yh....they all seemed very bz wif dac stuff...but not kiping us in the loop about it....oh well....the lesser i noe the better too lar....too tired remembering so mani tings.....
yh went fer op fer her eye... had been swollen for weeks lor....n now on 2 daes mc...haiz...so i have to hold the fort fer 2 daes.... hopefulli nth major comes along.....*cross fingers*
wad realli kips me gg fer tis week is LABOUR DAY!! finally a PH....it's like a drought man....so mani mths no PH.....n my plans are....to explore the alphasmart (a leapfrog kinda laptop for learning) and do up more work tasks n materials fer the class....how interesting....
on another happy note, it is finally known to public through the news that SAAC is gg to move to elliot road!! but in 2010.....
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008Y
boss arranged a photography workshop todae fer us...cos he alwiz complains we dun take nice photos so dat he can use fer publicity....haa....quite interesting...take my mind off the stress fer a while...just pointed out some basic factors we should consider when taking photos...
fun to explore the functions of the camera....tempted to get a cam of my own....hmm....but shall try out using the sch's camera ferst....showed some of the past photos i took during the christmas fair last yr....he said my pics were not bad...heh....shall werk hard at taking nicer photos....been clicking students' photos using my hp lor....not even a digicam....but i tot it was gd enuff till todae....hmm....insightful...
boss lined up another video workshop and apple imac workshop fer us....gd to learn new tings....sometimes when boss has crazy ideas, it's not too bad an idea afterall....haa...at least it is some kinda personal upgrading fer us....so motivated to take photos dat tell stories now....just like the saying "a picture paints a thousand words".....
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008Y
it's been a Terrible Tuesday.
4 morning classes....2 classes' teachers not around...meaning 2 on mc, 2 on leave....imagine how in need of manpower we are....everyone whether on duty or not had to relief.....exhausted....lucki todae my own class go outing....nearly fall aslp on the bus ride to pasir ris park cos of one student who refuses to take train...argh...but practically the whole school was turned upside down....tantrums here n there....screams, cries, noise....argh....
more relief tmr....sianz...realli sick of this man....both mi n yh sianz earlie in the morning ....1st hr after i wake up i had a headache...so mani sms-es...all late lar, on mc lar....i was stuck in jam then....adds on to my headache...
still feeling sore at the decisions made sometimes....sometimes i dun feel i'm part of the managerial level...tho in title i shld b....but suddenly feel like i'm just a pawn in this whole game....nothing was realli under my control....i cant even haf some predictability myself....how can things be under my control??
realli dunno how long my enthusiasm will last n can last....
was listening to the radio n dey were discussing on the topic of "if u were a super hero, wad supernatural powers wld u wan?" mani called in to sae "predictability of the future".....i wld love dat...but if dat were to happen, wad's the point of living?? so mabbe i shldnt feel so disheartened by all these changes n unpredictability?? den again...it's too overwhelming.....everyday....=S
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Sunday, April 20, 2008Y
it has yet been another xiong week...and weekend...
2 major tantrums in 2 consecutive days...wasnt from my class, din get hurt, but some staff are down cos of dat...all suffered here and there...poof...strong boys...i had to relief the classes then...or standby everyday....
first lesson plan due...n many more paper work coming up....poof....
had so many discussions with my co tis week....staff meeting too...onli complaint abt my co is dat he is too soft-spoken....tho he has improved...but our class too noisy...cant hear him sometimes....everyday after class both of us gets ringing sounds in our ears....giving me a headache everyday....i alwiz pity whoever becomes my co teacher...cos i never have time wif them....my time is given to everyone else...sadly..he had to stay back on friday to discuss with me when everyone else went home....*guilt* he comes earlie more often these days....cos i'm there early everyday...so he said just in case i'm free he can catch me ferst....*guilt guilt*
cos of the staff meeting on wed, i have more paper werk n discussions coming up....n had to postpone all my piano lessons on wed to todae....i'm really glad i'm not a full time piano teacher....travelling alone is enuff to kill....i travelled to my piano teacher's house at jurong west...den to cck near my house...den to yew tee...den back to cck central....gosh....realli a loner n must-travel-alot job....
yest went to alexandra hospital fer dental appt...cos of my wisdom tooth....had an xray n was advised to extract it...it's a high risk surgery (as compared to other pple) cos it is in the way of my nerves...n when i told the dentist i m considering braces...she said in that case haf to extract probably 8 teeth!!! argh....n yesh...i'm gg to put braces at this age....sigh....*broke* will be meeting the braces doc in june...haiz...wad worries me apart from the pain n money is dat i'll be given 8 days of mc....
todae at my piano teacher's hse....again, she commented dat i look pale....who wldnt? considering i haf to werk big half of the time, din had gd sufficient sleep last nite (cos my biological clock woke me up...drats!), practised 1.5 hr of piano non-stop, carry tons of books to her hse where i have to take 2 buses, reach her hse to play fer another 45 min or so....to learn that she wants me to take another 3 students.....had to decline....else i'll die....ask me to eat black chicken, which i obediently did for lunch....drink yomeishu as wad my dad alwiz asked me to.....wad probably made me turn paler was when she said she told her fren to look out for guys for me n her other students in 20s.....duhz....
cant believe tmr is the start of another week again....i'm living by daes....i totally lost count of dates.....have been fergeting impt dates these daes....so do remind me if there's another gathering or so (to my dear wach mach wach pple....) haa.....u guys are probably the only ones i meet apart from my colleagues n students liao....haa....n oh yes...gonna meet angela hewitt on fri n sun....in case u're wondering who she is....she's a pianist....gg fer her concerts....nid someone to gimme the boost of inspiration man.....
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Monday, April 14, 2008Y
felt so guilty last fri when i made my ever-so-cheery boy cry....but after he cried again todae, i wasnt the least guilty animore....he is so not typical of ASD except his obsession wif the lift buttons, auto doors and switches....he has been playing wif the lift buttons ever since tis year...his goal was to stop tis inappropriate bhv...so well, i used the "thinking chair" method....made him sit at the thinking chair when he played wif the lift....being totally friendly n likes being wif frens, he hates being left out....no wae could i get him to sit on the chair....he tried to "kiss" me awae, push me awae...none of which worked...so he started sitting at the sofa looking super gloomy....as if doing self reflection there....n when i asked if he was ready to join the class, he started weeping from the bottom of his heart....for a moment, my heart nearly melted...i m now the one feeling remorseful about wad he has done....well done boy! u have successfully manipulated ur teacher.....haa...n as he cried he spat on the sofa...yucks...haa...fer the rest of the dae din wan to push him too hard...haiz....n todae he did the same again....okie....i'll learn to not feel the remorse from todae onwards....my new co teacher must feel i'm so fierce...haa...=X wonder if i shld continue wif the thinking chair approach...it actualli werked fer a while when i reminded him....hmm...
i tink i'm realli aging faster than i m....forced to grow up in this org...forced to be the sensible one in the org...mabbe werking wif so mani females make me haf tis strong self awareness of wad is gg to happen to me in 5 yrs' time....still single like most of my colleagues? wierd like some of them? happy-go-lucky still? or old n haggard? i'm quite adversive to guys' touch these daes...haa...how shld i put it...mabbe kena touched by students so often....i'm ok wif their touch...but todae my co teacher suddenly tried to pick sth frm my hair, i felt funny....n when the ot sometimes gimme a pat i m quite sensitive to it....haaa...mabbe i'm too conservative....*shy* it's difficult to get close to me i guess..haa....n mabbe my other colleague is rite...i'm the ice queen....alwiz look so cool....but i'm not lor....i'm the panicky gan cheong spider.....
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Wednesday, April 09, 2008Y
somehow or rather, bitching has become part of my job everydae...all tis politicking is realli driving me nuts...n the male colleagues disturbed by all these touchy women arnd them...haa....
the invincible duo - U n D no one can outtalk them...my prog head gave up on them...mi almost there too liao...now everyting they do we'll just go straight n report to boss....giving him a headache...todae i went in wif their arch enemy to report wad has been happening all along.... they r just trying to find trouble every single dae....one dae, pencils missing, another dae, brushes lost, chairs oily, books missing, the latest one was theft of idea...she insisted P their arch enemy copied her idea of doing up the shopping list....oh pls! it's just a shopping list!! most absurd one was last week when dey maligned P of abusing students cos apparently they saw some "blood stains" on the door....which most probably was paint...n the boy in the class kept saying he wants to go home...haiz...come on lar...never heard of asd students wif echolalia issit?? made a big hooha out of it...said it's voodoo lar...asked the pastor n gang to go pray in that classroom lar....totally nonsensical!! argh.....plus rite, their attitudes r realli untolerable!! totally dun care bout students which irks all the teachers most....argh....
all the oics r living in daes of fear....cos we realli dunno when we'll lose our sense of direction n strength....tings just seem a little gloomy....
Y tendered last week....we din noe the exact reason...until i spoke to her....another case of cannot get along wif colleague....so now she wun mind a transfer to the adults side....but the reason she gave to dat particiular colleague was dat she wanted to go into early intervention....such a great difference....we were cracking our heads to tink of a reason fer her transfer so dat dat colleague will not smell sth amiss....she probably will given her strong sense of intuition....haiz....
*disclaimer: the below extract is not fer weak stomachs or fer full stomachs....*
todae, my new boy realli tire my co teacher A n i out...at the start of class....not realli toilet trained, was on diapers but parents want him to remove n change whenever he reaches school....so we did....everydae....
me to A: do u smell sth? tink someone farted leh....v smelly!! A: where got?? after mani rounds of cfmation, he still din smelt it...i gave up trying to convince him...den came circle time.... me: TR, stand up....*felt sth not rite as he was squatting there* dun tell me it's u TR....oh no... n true enuff....i wasnt born in the yr of dog fer nth k! i saw sh*t cascading down his legs....stunned for a few minutes, both of us not knowing wad to do ferst....finally when i got my senses back, i held on to his hands n asked my co to bring me 2 plastic bags....i'll tie up his feet n walk him to the toilet...n it was there we washed him up while another teacher babysitted my class fer a while....gosh....when will the boys toilet ever be ventilated??! argh...nearly fainted...my co had to run to the fan to breathe fer a while....he's so farnie....haa...after we changed him all, went back to class...the impatient boy started crying cos he cldnt stand waiting time...took so long fer him to calm down...gosh...n den, my nose pricked n smelt sth again....bad omen...gotta change him again....haiz...last diaper liao....called dad to come fetch him....n guess wad? they live one street awae frm me...n took 1.5 hrs exactly to reach sch....thanks lor...almost time to go home by den....but aniwae, he was fine towards the end....phew....
something to cheer me on...my class is now the cutest class n most fun class...as noted by most teachers n therapists....heh....all the 5 characters in my class r cute to bits tho dey haf their difficult moments too lar...but generally, we r a happy class...B n WP r my "long time volunteers for answering ALL questions" haa...."who wants to help me?" *raise hands...."who dun wan to go home?" *rasie hands....i alwiz trick them...haa...so mean huh....WP has his own "chek chek chek" language n i sometimes communicate wif him in dat lang....i kinda understood it....*ultimate level liao...* YM is the fatty boy in my class who can do hand stand for 3 secs like how pple do fer hip hop dance....W has his signature wae of running which is so farnie....n TR is the only clear verbal student i have who speaks nodding his head everytime when i ask him a qn....as if to reassure me dat his answer is correct...laughing is wad we all haf in common....even while cleaning sh*t i oso can luff...tink i'm gg crazy.....haa....it's just too contagious....sooooo grateful fer tis bunch of kids i haf.....so even after a whole morning of bitching n arguing n being shouted at fer nth, the best medicine is still the luffter in my class....
