felt realli down on tues....cos of wad sal told me on mon...she feels dat our (cos we supposedly r in the same clique) hard werk dun get recognised by boss cos raj n siti mite not present our werk to him....den she continued saying dat we nid to showcase ourselves to boss...n she kinda reckon dat i m quite in the boss's gd books....so on tues, we started doing up all the craft werk fer children's charity carnival in dec...she made me go into the boss' office wif her to ask bout the budget n all....n somehow slipped my mind dat when u do tings lidat, u will kena arrowed fer sure...so den we had tis whole meeting bout the activities on dat dae n wad we wan to achieve frm the carnival - publicity....so it kinda landed on our laps....(but luckily in the end it will fall back to the special events team...) just kinda felt dat i was being made used of....to help promote her....not dat i mind much, but sometimes i do feel she is a lil bimbotic n overly-sensitive....so din realli tok to anione much on tues....n i guessed everyone around me noticed it....it's not difficult to do dat cos i'm usu chatty n full of crap....
n tues became worse when my deary sunshine boy failed to come to sch....waited fer him fer 2+ mths man....so looking forward to seeing him n no signs of him at all....called mum but din pick up...onli called me back at 6+pm to tell me his grandma's leg is still painful so cant bring him to the bus....n cfm dat he'll come the next dae....
n tues became worst when we had a meeting after werk to find out dat our whole hols is quite burnt....event after event after event....symposium, trainings, camp, carnival, meeting wif parents, more trainings.....all back to back....no time fer breather....everyone can onli clear leave on the last 2 weeks of dec....sad....raj mentioned dat 2 operational heads will be selected fer sch n siti will go to dac as the operational head....n dat reali created a storm wif the other dac teachers....politics....while we were walking to the mrt stn, sal came n told me i tink it's gonna be u n yin hong....wad could i sae? nth's been mentioned yet...n i dun reali care fer it...cos it's just another shitty job....
i realli prayed n wished so hard dat B will be back on wed....n sure he did!! so happie....very!!! couldnt stop looking at him...luff tog...haa...went bedok reservoir by car...kelvin's car n bernard's (volunteer) car...best....3 students onli....P threw tantrum at the park man....took the 2 man, sal n me to lift him man....nono...drag him....poof...kena pinched at my arms....now i got flabbier arms....sobz...wif blue-black.....ouch....
was told yest morning dat mi n yin hong r the operational heads....just like wad sal speculated...she kept asking me if she was rite after my meeting wif raj n boss...."u'll noe when the time comes..." it's still better to hear frm them directly ba...dey gonna announce it tmr (fri)....can predict a war coming up....cos sal had been quite cold towards me todae....mabbe she wanted to draw the boundary....oh well....i dunno wad she felt bad at...mabbe P's tantrum, mabbe feeling sore, mabbe feel dat i'm hush hush bout it, or feel dat i'm gonna belong to raj n siti's grp soon....heck....werk is werk....if u wan to distance me as a fren cos of werk den i cant help it....can foresee mani wars coming up...reali...aft hearing bout lotsa untold secrets behind the scenes....suddenly felt my werkplace aint as 'simple' as it seems...there's much more to it...n one of boss's wishes is hope dat both of us can werk tog to boost the morale in the staff.....i supposed i can be the best person to do it....but i can also be the worst person at it....tings r gonna change....people r/s r gonna change....haiz....dunno to be happie dat my werk is being recognised, or dat i'm gonna be hated by most people soon.....
