yest went to my new piano student (hoo is oso a child wif autism)'s hse fer the 2nd time....gosh...even if i got money i oso dun wanna stay in private hses man.....pui!! simply cos it's such an unfriendly environment....with numbers dat jump here n there....unfrenly dogs scorning n barking at me cos dey noe i'm lost n dat i dun look high klass enuff to live in dat area....stoopid road signs dat kip saying "westwood ave", "westwood drive", "westwood cres", "westwood road" n just not "westwood walk'....had a map in my hands n went round n round n round.....passer by joggers glanced at me everytime i walked pass dem....i refused to ask anione fer directions....initially i refused to take my map out cos i wanted to just recall the route myself....too bad my memory failed me....argh....n finally i found a number XX which was where my student lives....pressed the doorbell tho i was quite sure it wasnt westwood walk....but heck lar....haa...n frm outside...it looks like the hse i been to a week ago....pressed a few more times no one answerd the door....looks kinda creepy n old....so decided to walk on since i wasnt sure dat was the hse...if i cant find another same number i'll come back....meantime the skies turned darker.....n as i walked on n on....i realised i reached the main road where my dad dropped me....which i asked him to cos i wanted to find my wae there on my own....serves me rite man....okie so back to starting point....took out my map again....n i told myself....if i still cannot find it....i'm realli stoopid....so i followed the map.....but cldnt see ani link to his hse....getting frustrated as i'm abt to admit i'm stoopid liao....den u turn back n finally saw the small side road....gosh...n there it was....perspiring n hot n his hse onli has a ceiling fan dat was not at all cooling....(initially din even on lo!) but aniwae, yesh zm u're rite...it's quite dark over there...cannot imagine if i take the bro next time....haf to go back even later....
n oso on yest...(sorrie tis is backdated...haa) my 50-yr-old colleague cried at werk again...cos got some unkind remarks frm the prog head saying she's domineering the klass....wad the la....he shld come into my new klass to see wad is domineering man....fer the ferst two daes i simply was like a volunteer in the klass....my new co teacher hoo just joined us had so mani ideas fer the klass n just did wadeva she liked n said she was given the green light....tis n dat....untill todae she was on mc...last min had to take the klass...onli 2 big but young boys...haa...kena stepped on my toes fer so mani times.....but ok lar...it was good to be in control again.....but kinda felt like a children's songs jukebox and a nanny/presch teacher....nth pretty much bout autism....miss my old klass!! sobz.....but at least i had my sunshine boy in the afternoon hoo alwiz brings luffter n smiles into the klass....the downside is it is so contagious.....had to luff the whole afternoon about nothing....todae went airport n he tried to be very cheeky....came very klose to my face...stick out his tongue....11 or 12 yrs old but 1.74m tall....poof....but he's just so cute.....haa...
received the nie letter....finally....but dat was more like bad news den good news....cos the dateline fer replying was next mon...meaning the papers must reach next mon....but my boss will be back in spore on the same dae....provided he comes to office....otherwise i wun get a chance to tok bout my pay n the terms n condition liao....but bet he noes nuts too....argh!!! stuck in a job with bad mgmt....too mani issues oreadi......haiz.....all the more i having second tots again bout gg....my colleagues were kinda toking to me about it....cos dey all noe i'm confused....but i do lurve the kids.....i'll hate to leave.....all these factors making me feeling down since last week....haiz....
haiz...tmr gg to woodlands....to see a potential piano student....dunno if i still can take or if dey wan me....been travelling arnd spore every week.....werk in the east, go outings with klass everywhere, teach piano in the west n the north....poof.....stress.....realli stress.....n with my piano teacher buggin me every week trying to dissuade me frm werking there n wanting me to become a full time piano teacher....
i'm tired.....but i cant sleep i'm tired.....but i still haf lotsa paper werk to clear i'm tired.....of tinking thru bout the same old decision i haf to make i'm tired.....of naggin at my piano students dat their exams r round the corner
i'm tired.....of being a perfectionist (even when wrapping a gift....shall post a pic of it soon.....)
