2 new staff came in todae...a guy n a ger....the guy is so tall n big-size...gd....hope he can handle the students n wun be scared off the chair by the students here....cos his ferst dae was posted to the most behavioral klass...6 students who nids more den 3 pairs of hands to get everyone gg....n with one particular guy hoo was totally obsessed with pressing the lift these few wks..."press 11th floor...press 11th floor" n the klassmate will go "who press 11th floor...who press 11th floor..." haa....quite a handful combi...din tok to the new guy much but heard he was in special ed (sped) b4...so dat's gd....the lady had been in another sped sch fer 10 yrs!!! omg.....so experienced....very gd....but autism is still quite new a field to her cos the previous sch takes in a few disabilities...
yest i had to relief my previous klass (thanks to my co-teacher "lending" me to dem....)....i totally din mind gg back...in fact i loved the idea....until when i was told i was being "lent out"....made me feel small....so small...den told me the klass went v well...did a lot of stuff...etc etc....all the good tings....nvm....den todae...she told the volunteer n the new guy who was attached to the klass dat "oh...u'll realised dat i'm the noisy teacher n she's the quiet teacher..." i read it as...1) i'm the bad teacher hoo doesnt allow students to make noises....well, cos i kip asking dem to be quiet....loud noises r of cos not allowed wad.....2) i'm the teacher hoo rarely toks....and she being the very active one.....well, in the field of autism, we're not advised to tok too much....some the tings she said had some tint of sarcasm in dem...mabbe i was too sensitive...but i bet if it were ani other of my colleagues, dey wld haf rebuted her oreadi....wad was worse is when she alwiz passes very nasty remarks....in front of volunteer n new staff....we alwiz reward students fer gd behavior using m&ms or sweets or gummi bears....she alwiz tink it's like training dogs....i told her it may be uncomfortable doing dat at ferst....but dat is one approach to encourage gd behavior....i find it bad to use it at ferst...but tis is the method dat brings instantaneous results most of the time fer young kids....and so she's been gg arnd saying dat....todae she realli pissed me off when i suggested doing some jumping with hula hoops fer exercise....den she replied saying "yar...sure! train dem to jump so dat dey can perform in the zoo....." very demeaning.....felt bad fer the students....told her off quite nicely liao....she still continue saying it...plus wad wld the outsiders tink when dey hear tis??? haiz...din wan to let other colleagues noe bout wad she said....cos tings will get messier...but too bad she said it in front of others too....so dey heard it n clarified wif me....dey all were disgusted wif her....so i tink i shld bring tis up to my prog head....lest others sae i din do my job in reporting (tho i'm not sure if dat responsibility falls on me...she seems like the main teacher in the klass n mi just a support) she better stop toking n tinking in tis manner....it's unhealthy.....
so gd to haf a chance to see my shalom kids back in klass again....tho K screamed cos her water bottle leaaked...n she kept asking fer scotch tape man....nice to see B, R n C smile when dey saw me....Ri still quite irritating when he doesnt do his werk....but he's quite farnie in other waes....n of cos YH whom i haf to drag n pull everywhere....so lembek dat he practically lies on the floor, slouches on the chair etc....had a hard time trying to get him stand up all the time....poof....backache....
my sunshine boy withdrawing frm sch temporarily...so sad....haiz...cos his grandma injured her foot or sth so cannot bring him down to take the sch bus....i dun mind sacrificing my pathetic lunch time n volunteering to bring him to sch!!
another high behavioral support guy stopped sch too cos he was sent to imh by his parents...very saddening...it realli chills my heart to hear dat...the parents r too stressed out n driven to the wall oreadi....dey cannot handle his behaviors animore....esp when he grows taller n bigger...he's quite high cognitively...but sad to sae he is high on behavior too....spits at pple, throws furniture, hits, kicks...he doesnt even come to sch...he onli goes fer a walk arnd simei wif my colleague to train his compliance...haiz....
stress man...trying to catch up wif all the stuff dat my co-teacher has....her pace too fast....all i can do is to prepare fer my dat student...hoo oso gives me a hard time...n hopefulli i get changed to another klass (like wad my co-teacher had such a strong hunch on....)....tis klass is realli quite unbearable at times....werking wif pple whom i cant realli connect wif....altho it's v slow paced n slack....haiz.....i shall try harder in buidling the connections!!
