finally my probation has ended...the boss finally has time to tok to us individually bout werk....i was the last one to go fer interview.....everyone pinned their hopes on me to ask whether there was a raise...cos my colleague b4 me did not succeed....she asked "will there b ani changes aft probation?" cos she din wanna be so direct....so boss said "yar....all ur designation will change to educational therapist..." duhz....dat wasnt wad she wanted to ask....dat's y i gotta ask on behalf of the rest...kauz...."so will there be ani adjustments in....*pause*...." "Pay?" he said...haa..i quickly nodded..."yah" "there will be no increment but i'll try to adjust the bonuses accordingly....dun worrie...those who do more will be rewarded...." how vague an answer.....but rite aft dat he asked how much i wan....i hum n haw n muttered a figure...which was still as lil....haiz.....but aniwae, he said he was happie wif my werk....n is glad dat i'm enjoying myself....when he asked me my strengths....i was realli tongue tied....din noe wad to sae....i thot n thot n thot fer so long....paiseh....big half of the time he was toking abt the clients....how to improve on them...etc etc....he wanted me to go into curriculum....which i had some intuition dat he wld wan me to go into....but...gulp......dat wld realli b hard werk....i can foresee myself wif more white hairs coming out...sobz! he oso told me wad some of the rest wld b doing....n he revealed to me dat one of my colleague will become teacher aide...meaning....one level below us...dat's realli quite sad...she's currently in my klass now....haiz...i dunno wad the future holds....tho he again n again tried to reassure us dat it's gg to be wonderful...i realli dunno if it's just his wishful thinking....or mabbe dat dae will come....but years down the road.....dun even noe if i'll stay til then....so when i came out...one of my colleague said to me "he asked u to go fer the NIE rite...." sounds a lil sourish...."yar...but he intends to send everyone there...." i said truthfully...."but he said u must go rite...." "no....he din sae dat..." den the rest helped support by saying they oso kena asked to go....."oh issit....cos when i tok to him he kinda mention he wans u to go....." haiz....sometimes hor...i dunno if tis colleague is trying to trick me into saying some stuff or she realli heard dat.....
went zw's hse after werk aft piano...poof...i sure look tired...yest reached home late aft watching "fearless" which i must conclude i dun like gungfu shows...todae played bluff aft dnr prepared by his mum.....big spread....realli brain dead....cant tink....tmr worse dae....my 2 colleagues awae....one on training one on leave...left me n 3 students...but some colleagues will come support me in klass....but it's realli bad news man.....mi gonna teach all the wae tmr!!! every lesson i'm taking....PE, Reading, Self Awareness, Break (still haf to be on standby...), and Music n movement.....gosh.....n aft werk still got piano till 9+....plus daddy not fetching me home....argh....i nid sleep......