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Sunday, June 29, 2008Y

ever wondered the song dat jacky wu alwiz sings as the dolphin voice (hai tun yin)? well...here's the original version....amazing....


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aft a long nite of thinking, i decided to tok to boss about it on fri when all the rest were off werk...but it just wasnt a gd timing,...the morning was spent being interrogated by the officials...n we took hits here n there...totally bashed out....they had no tact man....gosh....director somemore....thank god my ex-supervisor was back to help us out.....some management issues which is reali beyond us...beyond boss even....n at the end of the dae, we received an email from my colleague to go to tis radio website....there was a report written about us...in a funny n negative manner....boss read it b4 he left...so it reali wasnt a gd dae to tok....oh well...*shurg* was toking to my sis about it over the weekend n was glad i din bother him wif such a trivial matter....he had other bigger problems to fret about....as fer me, i felt better over the weekend...n shall treat these as precious experience....i guess tis is not the time to make tings worse.....

n thank you dear frens fer checking out my blog....i'm fine...dun worrie....just like to grumble...dat's all...heh....i ferget easily....=)

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Thursday, June 26, 2008Y

i realli dun mean it...

i'm just not cut out for it rite from the start n i knew it.
i'm not a gd decision-maker.
i'm not firm enough.
i'm shldnt haf tried being one.
i'm responsible for these undisciplined staff.

i'm not out to make you the devil oic.
neither m i crafting my image as the angel.
i'm trying. believe me.
but some part of me just tells me that it is beyond my personality to do so.
probably the boss made the wrong choice and got the wrong person on the bus.

i noe wad's wrong.
i wan to remediate it.
but pple haf stereotyped me.
it's not ez to haf a breakthrough.
n now i noe wad my uncle meant when he did my fortune-telling for the year.
i haf my plans.
but they are alwiz faced with the same problem.
n onli i noe wad the problem is. n where it lies.
sadly, the problem lies in me.

perhaps i shld just revert back to where i started.
probably then everyone will be happier.
n they will be able to move on.
i'm the limiting factor here.

it's been a long tedious 9 mths.
extreme stress n fatigue.
not to mention the emotion roller-coaster.

shld i tok to boss about it?
shld i continue to kip it to myself?
shld i hang on and werk my wae thru?
or shld i just avoid tis issue and not tink about it?

the cold hard truth just hurts.

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008Y

went fer a 2-day leadership course....so enlightening...made us all slow down frm the bz life n discover more about ourselves....did personality tests...discussed about all the difficult pple we haf to deal wif....learn how to breathe....learnt how to be an effective leader....reminded me so much of the social psych daes....the most difficult part lies in the application....

interesting to find out dat siti is an amiable, while yh is a driver n me an analyst...n dat we can all werk within our strengths n weaknesses to run the centre....i knew all along dat i'm an analyst...cld tell yh is a driver...a clear driver tho she still dun see herself as one....n siti...hmm...amiable...probably....

aft the ferst dae course, i was quite demoralised....okie...mabbe not demoralised...but felt i just wasnt gd enuff to be a leader....almost wanted to tell boss i wan to drop out...n step down....actualli all along lar....but tinking back, these 8 mths i haf learnt so much bout pple r/s....n which part of me is a gd leader n which is not....i do wan to learn....but tis route is reali not all smooth n ez.....n the previous daes when yh shouted at me, or expressed dat superiors are more bias towards me (indirectly), staff reports to me not her.....it just isnt ez to swallow all that despite that i confide in her the most.....i still respect her as my fellow oic...n dat she has the qualities which i lack....n dat's y we r probably a gd combi....she did hint dat y not just i be the oic...n she can just teach...well, wad makes her tink dat i din haf tis tot?? but aniwae, we r able to put these aside n try to werk fer the better of the sch.....

realli inspired by the speaker...n the video she showed which were all in words....wanna read those books she intro....

the leader lies in you.


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realised i din update on the family last tues....

it was realli fun....gd to see so many supportive parents n siblings, participative students young n old together (our oldest service user aged 33 yrs old came wif parents too!), teachers all letting their hair down....

i dunno y but i ended up being the emcee fer the dae....hard to imagine eh....well, i alwiz feel i'm a different person altog when i'm wif students....so parents? nah....heck....we played telematches, carnival games, wall painting, face painting, mass dance tog....parents even joined us in the dance...haa...so onz....

n tis is our 2nd yr running...but tis time round we held it at our eventual sch site...everyting was old n dirty...except the main hall....n thankfully it was air-conditioned...else we'll all be roasted....it was so scorching hot....man....had to end the dae wif gelare ice-cream....heh....treat fer ourselves....=]

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gd news!!

1. boss finally gg to make time to meet up the parties involved for fri's argument...n he said he's gg to do the necessary....sack U...realli hope he means it....

2. boss offered positions for 2 new staff....hope they'll take it up....mi n yh have been in the pressure cooker all these while as our manpower shortage prob is gg to take place in 2 weeks' time...

3. TR initiated in requesting to go toilet!! he suddenly pulled my hand n brought me to the door n took off the toilet icon....n when he reach the cubicle, he was able to do the whole procedure himself without prompts! usu he'll onli go toilet when we ask him....he is on diapers...in case u're wondering y i'm so happie about such an insignificant 'achievement'....but it's a gd sign!! =)

hope all these will continue to be true....*positive thinking*

things will get better....

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Monday, June 23, 2008Y

ferst dae of sch n i'm worn out....emotionally....B's mum called the sch in the morning to sae she wans to withdraw him from sch fer a few mths....cos of financial and ill health of the mum n the grandma.....felt so sad but i tried hard not to show....single parent with special needs child on no pay leave, undergoing chemo n radiotherapy for her cancer, taking care of a sickly mother....n the thot of happie b's face.....my heart just sank....how can i help them??? argh.....

so mani tings happened todae...n boss wasnt free to attend to ani of them....was just toking to yh on the phone till 12+pm...werk has taken up 90% of our waking time....

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spent last sat nite singing at wang jia ktv...haa...jh's hse lar...sing till i no breath no voice till late...but it cosy n all....nidless to sae, dat was the last gathering we'll have wif ly b4 he flies off to indiana fer a yr....yep...he REFUSES to let us send him off....okie...=/ wad to do....shall not go into the debating part of it....so yep....sang all the oldies n nostalgic songs...which he selected...haa....haiz....

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Friday, June 13, 2008Y

My last day of leave b4 sch reopens....

went to AH fer dental appointment...realli nid to start saving now...poof...

watched kung fu panda wif sis n bro! so cute and farnie n action-packed....but was a little too short i felt....
http://youtube.com/watch?v=zxqRU7ZB2MQ
jackie chan's role a little fei...cos onli spoke like 2-3 sentences?

den went facial...ouch....outbreak soon....too stressful....even b4 sch starts....have been sending emails after emails....until now...haiz....

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Sunday, June 08, 2008Y




another spanish song....nice~

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one of the abba's songs we sang at ktv dat dae....haa...in spanish...n paulina explained it's a small ger who etc....etc....cldnt rem...haa....just frm one word....chiquitita....u haf one long story...haa...


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n yesh...my one week's leave is gone....sobz....n one great achievement tis holidays -- i went out everyday! plus! din do any of the werk i brot home in case i was bored....haa...onli received emails n smses bout werk....=P

Monday

taught piano in the morning....all the make up lessons....kena fly kite by woodlands kid....whole family forgot bout it....but nvm, the mum suggested taking dat as a lesson b4 i told her....=)


travelled to tampines....shop at tampines mall n century sq n realised it wasnt as "wow" as b4....since every other shopping centre has all of it now....


went to clara's hse fer dnr....to celebrate yen n paulina's bdaes...n dat cath was gg....erm...okie not celebrate....farewell dnr....knew cath will there...thot it wld be awkward...n the group was like dun match....wanted to pang seh....but like bad lor....but *phew* i m a natural actress man! still tok to her like nth happened....=] it's a pity the school lost her lar....seriously...apart frm her attitude....paulina and yen's kids came....havoc....so hyperactive...clara declared no kids in her hse ever again....haa.....toked bout men....which was usu not the topic wif my other frens...haa...their views on men reali was an eye-opener...haa...learnt alot...heh....mabbe shldnt find one too...hmm.....

yen (L) and paulina(R) 's belated bdaes....clara(middle) the host...

the lil devils....


Tuesday


Went sentosa wif my sis! was drizzling in the morning....but our backup plan -- shopping at vivocity! n so we did....chop chop bot an aldo shades n went over to sentosa once the weather was gd....heh....was drizzling a bit still...but it was ok....as long as i'm awae frm the mainland spore....n i get to see the beach n the sea! wasnt realli doing much...just lying arnd looking at pple...the ah-nehs...the ah-peks....reading mag...listening to music...suntan a teeny weeny bit...take picts....n den went back to shop....heh....had mala steamboat...man! was it spicy! lips doubled up the usual size....realli use zhen cai shi liao....




Wednesday

conquer bukit timah hill! heh....volunteered at my school for the sch holiday prog....heh...glad i went....needed a little werkout n it was an interesting trip compared to the pri sch trip where we got lost in the jungle....(actualli cos i asked my fren to volunteer n not v nice if i dun turn up eh....)

jh frm my jc aka jim (haa..) went...n wow...it has been mabbe 2-3 yrs since i met him?? he has put on wt man...but i din "reassure" him on dat lar...din even mention bout it tho he kept indirectly admitting he is fat....initially he quite zho bo....den in the end his mass came in handy....to lift up a boy to make him stand as he was too tired n just flopped onto the ground....haa...

went up the main route wif the steep cemented trail...no kick...cos we have been climbing stairs all the time! my student emerged ferst! gd job W! heh....his mum n bro came...his elder bro looked younger but exactly like him....haa....came down by the jungle trail....ups n downs...n like teresa said...it's just like life....oh well....preaching in the woods...haa...great....most of the students enjoyed it....heh...haven seen R smile fer a long while.....=)

monkeys attack!! ferst, snatched my student's bro's tidbits...n more monkeys came...all trying to steal food frm us...gosh....snatched another packet frm another student...n H, hoo was sitting wif me asked me "miss serene, can i stand here?" *pointing at the bench...haa...yesh H! com'on....n i stood there wif him....cos i'm scared too!!! he held me by my waist....wan to run oso cannot...haa...so there he was, writing his journal...about the monkeys...haa...then dey performed the RA show fer the other sec sch students there...n gosh...they were so thrilled....kids....

went straight to chinatown to sing ktv wif yen n girl, paulina n boy, n yh....ferst time sing so mani english songs....me just cannot sing well...haiz...but nvm! it's fer the fun of it! but it wasnt too relaxing...cos the kids realli drive us nuts....meddle tis meddle dat....onli got peace when dey went to the main hall to dance n even got to know the waiter n kapo a drink....best! untill the waiter came in n said "sorry, we are gg to start the hall oreadi....cannot look aft them animore..." hahahaha......realli turned the small rm upside down man....




Thursday

woke up later than other days....watched The Rainman dvd....finally got it at tampines mall dat dae....it was almost extinct....last part was quite interesting...but like all other shows on autism, dey portrayed onli the tiny bit of the spectrum....but dustin hoffman n tom cruise r realli gd actors....dustin hoffman was still so young then!!

played badminton wif ly, jh n jy....n had a quick dnr at bpp ljs cos rushing to woodlands fer lesson...sorrie guys....=S

Friday

went to trim my hair....badly nid it...n turned out looking almost the same....but at least i felt lighter...luckily it was cheap....

went town to shop n haf high tea wif adel at royal park...yesh...again....it's royal park....food wasnt as great but we ate so much till we were bloated...had to walk down the whole stretch of orchard to digest the food...one company was organising their staff retreat there...so noisy....they realli saved the fee for a function rm man....even had their lucky draws there....gosh....





Saturday
supposed to meet for cycling at ecp....bad weather again....argh...so met fer korean dnr....ordered ginseng chicken soup....gd tonic fer me...haa...n went back to ecp fer walk to realise dat it started drizzling again....
Sunday
finished piano earlie n was about to go yio chu kang sports hall to watch table tennis match live....den dad msg to sae it's too late cos it ends at 5....sianz....so watched frm tv....onli manage to catch the last bit....but miss the days when i played tt....n watched the matches live...=[







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Thursday, June 05, 2008Y

some thots bout the day activity centre...

haven been to dac aft a long while...finally had a chance to go over to relief just b4 i went on leave...cos usu mi n yh haf to die die stand guard in sch...haiz...

well, so touched dat some of them still rem me!! n gave me the smirky smile as usual...haa....well dat dae was quite alrite despite the scary stories i've heard from my colleagues....cos it was therapy dae n i din had to do much...plus some students were not arnd...went overseas etc....gd life man...initially i was quite apprehensive...tho i've werked wif some of them b4...but kinda lost touch fer so long....but all was gd n i enjoyed myself there! realli....fer a dae...heh....it's realli different frm sch side....cos the adults are more interesting....plus i can throw awae the oic load there...haa....n i must sae we have taken in a few more cute guys! it's realli a pity....dey wld haf mesmerized mani gers with their smiles and distinctive features....haiz....c? gd-looking guys are either married, attached, gay or ASD...haiz...

most of them are now better at following instructions which was such a happie sight....of cos some just are the same way they were back then...there may be daes where the dac staff may feel discouraged, exhausted or angry with some students....but maybe they dun see it, that the students have reali changed...becos of them.....n becos they r with them everyday so they probably dun realise it...but i do! must go back n let them noe they realli shld kip up the gd werk....it's not ez...i noe...they r realli our dac warriors....haa....*applause*

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Sunday, June 01, 2008Y

my one week break officially starts now! dun seem long enuff fer me to recuperate n do all the tings i wanna do.....hmmph....planning to take more daes....heh...

cath n d officially tendered....n yh n i have to do exit interviews wif them....haiz....to quote my boss "so dat we ensure that dey leave as a happie staff..." the interviews aint gg to be truthful i can foresee.....duhz...wad's da pt...

heck....shall see to those probs after my break!! but ironically, i'll see cath tmr at clara's hse....darn...mabbe i shldnt go....hmm....all the wae to tampines to see my colleagues again....argh....

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