i nid to do serious self-monitoring n self-reflection....but it's so difficult these daes....i realli m lost n disillusioned....wad is right? wad is wrong? m i too bossy n pushy n snobbish? m i too indecisive? m i too insensitive? how m i gg to remediate the situation? how m i gg to let go when once i've let go 40% another 20% comes along to tie me down? i losing faith in myself....losing confidence in my judgements...i nid to tok to someone...but hoo? my co oic dropped me several hints within a few weeks about her unhappiness wif me....mabbe not unhappiness but probably some minor tings which we dont see eye to eye wif or tings dat werent explained properly....m i realli ready fer leadership role? m i realli the right person? have been questioning myself fer 1/2 yr....knew tis position is gg to be tuff fer me...wanted to give up when it was announced...but i din wan history to repeat itself...regret aft opportunity goes by....so i told myself i'll try....but it's reali been a rough 1/2 yr...mabbe it's time i shld give it up....n revert back to my old self...i hope it's still reversible....but den again, nth ventured nth gained...
