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Monday, October 29, 2007Y

went sal's hse fer hari raya visiting....straight aft piano i went down to bedok....almost felt like gg back to werk man....same journey....n almost wanted to stay over nite at werk place till i heard it was haunted....eeks....creepy....

her flat is quite big...gd food....gd-looking kids.....showed us her pics when she got married n was young....could hardly recognise her at all!! her husband is an indian....realise mani of my colleagues have indian other half....hmm....is dat the trend? or are indians more stable n dependent? hmmm....shld start looking arnd too.....

T, our nus student attachee, and B, our volunteer oso frm nus, were there too...came so late man...almost 9pm cos both of dem went to werk as promoters fer cosmetics...haa....so metro rite....n as usual sal was trying to matchmake mi to either of dem....haiz....pls....both too shuai fer me.....too big a discrepancy aint good....wun werk out....long time din see T....slimmed down n dyed his hair....ferst ting he did when he came in was to run to me n ask me to return a book to boss....alwiz lidat man....alwiz ask me to help him do tings...grr....but wad to do....he shuai he win liao lor....get to see b almost every week so ok lar...both wore clown suits to promote...haa....farnie...managed to get dem to come fer our camp in dec....yeah!

todae sal tok to me n was quite confident dat B is a player....haa....can tell lo sal!! actualli i shld tink T is one too....but the discreet type....so she finally gave up trying to matchmake me to either of dem....cos dey say i'm a guai ger...haa....n as she n teresa started toking....dey started discussing dat mabbe i was a player too....dat's y till now no bf....duhz.....

aniwae, went off at 9+...cannot tahan man...reach home 11pm n within another 10 hrs we will b seeing each other again.....poof.....lucki the boys stayed till almost 11.....else haf to take same train as B all the wae frm bedok to JE....sure nth to tok about....haa....

another bz dae....poof....told the RC i'm not continuing animore....dat irritating low eq lady kip bugging me to find a substitute b4 i leave....as if i care!! bet when my sis wan to leave she'll haf a difficult time toking sense to her....puke....

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Friday, October 26, 2007Y

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another week has passed....real fast....once again i feel like i've been working 24 hrs a dae....cos even at nite i start dreaming bout all the nitty gritty stuff i had to handle at werk everyday....big half of the day i'm doing all the operational tings so much so dat i haf not realli planned fer my klass well.....haiz....shall do so tmr....shall not jeopardise my students just becos i nid to settle all these other IC stuff....now my name has officially changed to OIC....quite sad....sounds more distant.....n the spectrum of my job scope has again stretched further....

i'm a family counsellor hoo listens to my colleague sobbing awae bout her dotter's hurtful words tho i m not even attached..

i'm maintenance too....when dey wan to lock up a window, dey come n find me for the key....construction workers want to do repair works tok to me....

file manager...tell everyone where to locate the documents dey nid.....

teachers' teacher....haf to mark n edit all their progress reports...which can realli make u puke blood even tho i haven started reading but onli briefly scanned thru.....makes me wonder bout our teachers' calibre....

tour guide at our sch....nid to bring parents n other sch's teachers arnd fer visit....

n the list goes on...shall add more in time to come....

had a full day meeting todae...plus bringing arnd 2 batches of other sch's teachers....met a ger frm my course n jc who happens to be a fren of 2 of my frens....same line....started off ever since we grad...so glad to find someone hoo has the same werking experience as me....we exchanged numbers....heh...shld broaden my netwerk.....she said it's tiring....i bet...she has been werking wif young kids all along....haa....gd ting i change klass so mani times i can proudly sae i took all age groups within the same 2 yrs....haa....her head of prog noes me so came in n chat tog...haa...sorrie but my supervisor dislikes him man....very rigid...but i find him alrite ba....oops....but i noe his staff all saes he is....

also met one of my few doctor frens at cgh the other day....okie..mabbe not fren...acquaintance bah...but chatted abit...it's nice to bump into pple whom i used to noe n still b able to strike a conversation wif dem....

feeling super overwhelmed at werk....so mani tings to handle....frm staff to students to interventions plans to enrolment to assessment to teaching....i must say my multi tasking ability has definitely gone up...but memory has probably gone down....too mani tings to rem.....gosh....

but at the same time i oso feel v blessed to be given all these opportunities.....shall take dem all in positive light....n i'm sure i've grown n learnt at the same time....raj said he nominated siti, yh n me fer the teacher's award....oh wow...honored...but dat's also the advantage of werking here....staff strength too little so got more opportunities....heh....n i must say heaven has been kind to me these few weeks....my piano cut down cos of exams....(few weeks onwards gonna be hell!) at least gave me time to pick up my new role n surf wif the tide....the onli piano lesson i had tis week was at woodlands....tho far n not realli cost effective to teach him, i realli enjoy myself there....cos the family is realli nice....cute n good n clever boys....with very loving young parents....*warmth*....n wif my afternoon klass in sch i have two boys who sticks wif me all the time like glue....and looks fer me fer assurance...(tho my new boy refused to get on the mrt n ruined our outing day...we actualli waited 5 trains to let him try....next week shall be better!!) all these little perks just kip me moving on n on....as long as i'm happie even tho i'm bz, dat's fine.....=)

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Sunday, October 21, 2007Y

now every week passes so quickly....hr matters r slightly better the past week....but everyone's problems have officially become my problems as well....the boys r crying more....the DAC has officially moved....will miss the older students man....haiz....presentation on thurs made me stressed to the max when the video just dun seem to werk....luckily turned out dat there were onli 2 audience of which i knew one of dem...so it was more like a chat or discussion...phew....cold sweat....but the fact dat it ends at 9pm is realli frustrating....been staying back at office till late....cos of meetings meetings n meetings....almost want to stay overnite so dat i dun nid to waste time travelling back...lucki my piano students all having exams so some stopped fer a week or two...at least let me haf a breather....but just cant help it but feel super tired...fell sound aslp during facial yest....even tho it was painful....went to jorg's new hse just now....nice decor~!!! very new age....n stylo milo....was a nice gathering...wad can i sae but time flies....so happie fer her....setting up her love nest liao....heh....so looking ferward to feb next yr fer her wedding~!! =)

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Sunday, October 14, 2007Y

been ages since i went out wif my family together fer dnr....usu we rarely tok at dnr table at home...cos everyone comes home at different timing....n most daes i'm not home fer dnr....but it's nice to noe dat there's alwiz someone there fer u....to support u in wadeva u do....

tmr's my off dae~!! yippee....been waiting fer tis dae so dat i can sleep late....haf announced it mani times at home liao....so hopefulli no one will wake me up earli.....heh....but most prob after i get up i'll be doing werk or practise piano....presentation on thurs n i haf not prepared it at all!! *gasp*

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Wednesday, October 10, 2007Y

feeling SO much better todae...at least tings seem to be back to normal....or so it seems....all under wraps...like volcanoes...u never noe when they will erupt....aniwae, class was pretty fun cos my cheery student is back after 2 daes' of absence....tink he misses sch too....so adorable...n i'm glad todae he got to meet his new fren n dey kinda got along ok....at least they kinda acknowledged each other's presence....n the new boy was pretty ok when we brot him out...tho he kept looking everywhere curiously....went to the pet shop tho i dun realli like animals....but realli class was nice...haiz...but next week onwards my co-teacher will be transferred to bedok site fer 3 weeks n i'll be left alone....shall take class photo tmr...heh....

mon is declared a holiday fer all of us~! yeah~!! the lil perks dat kip me gg....=]

piano results is out...some pass some fail...all expected except one ger whom i thot she'll fail badly....she actualli passed!! amazing! happie fer her la....as long as she puts in effort i'm sure she can do it....=)

alrite...gotta go watch grey's anatomy...sorrie if my previous post sounded too depressing....=P

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Tuesday, October 09, 2007Y

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i noe i'm stressed when i haf no appetite...
i noe i'm stressed when i wake up every morning thinking abt which dae it is todae...
i noe i'm stressed when everyone else's problems become my problems....
i noe i'm stressed when aniting i wan to sae out, i nid to rehearse them n make dem sound tactful n politically correct....

i noe i'm lucky when my new student behaved better den on his ferst day...
i noe i'm suay when unhappy events roll in once i became the OIC...

i noe i'm mad when pple disregard me fer hoo i m....
i noe i'm frustrated when tings get in my wae...
i noe i'm sad when i cldnt tell anione my troubles...
i noe i'm alone facing the troubles cos the door was locked n no one was home...

but i noe i'm strong when my heart bleeds but wif my eyes still dry....
and i noe i've grown cos i did not affect anione's mood back at home....

everydae is a learning experience....
i'll just haf to take tings in stride....
n follow wad my heart tells me to do....

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Sunday, October 07, 2007Y

mr octopus!

cool soba wif nice sauce....by zy....

zm n sc's creations....

jap curry again....chef: sc n zm...assistant: me....

nice unagi...but ex....

more creations....

my masterpieces! all i can sae is....practice makes perfect!!

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Friday, October 05, 2007Y

oh crap!!!! just checked my office email n realised i nid to do a presentation on the coming thurs!!!! when i din do ani of the homework yet!!!! argh!!!! spoil my weekend!!!! oh no oh no.....suay man....onli one gg fer the workshop....faintz.....argh....

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ok...n so the news was broken to the other staff...some expected it...some black face...some call n complain to me about them immediately....haiz....now my role has to brighten up the whole atm....so i cant be negative animore....i nid to bring some positivity to everyone....hmm...guess i can onli get all the positivity frm B....he's so full of smiles n cuteness....such a darling....love him to bits....

went shopping wif ct n as usual i din get aniting in the end.....ate korean food tho jap was wad i had in mind....but well fer a change la...haven try korean food at a restaurant....heh....went to eat at heeren n to our surprise, we had to queue.....thot everytime no business there one....haa...food is okay ba....mabbe not used to eating korean...kimchi is extremely well preserved i must sae....so sour n bitter n spicy n numbing...dunno how to describe....

the decor on the wall....cute....

bbq chicken, some side dishes n spicy kimchi soup at the bottom....

quite cute eh...the cutlery...all metal...

ct trying to help me take photos fer my blog...

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Thursday, October 04, 2007Y

felt realli down on tues....cos of wad sal told me on mon...she feels dat our (cos we supposedly r in the same clique) hard werk dun get recognised by boss cos raj n siti mite not present our werk to him....den she continued saying dat we nid to showcase ourselves to boss...n she kinda reckon dat i m quite in the boss's gd books....so on tues, we started doing up all the craft werk fer children's charity carnival in dec...she made me go into the boss' office wif her to ask bout the budget n all....n somehow slipped my mind dat when u do tings lidat, u will kena arrowed fer sure...so den we had tis whole meeting bout the activities on dat dae n wad we wan to achieve frm the carnival - publicity....so it kinda landed on our laps....(but luckily in the end it will fall back to the special events team...) just kinda felt dat i was being made used of....to help promote her....not dat i mind much, but sometimes i do feel she is a lil bimbotic n overly-sensitive....so din realli tok to anione much on tues....n i guessed everyone around me noticed it....it's not difficult to do dat cos i'm usu chatty n full of crap....

n tues became worse when my deary sunshine boy failed to come to sch....waited fer him fer 2+ mths man....so looking forward to seeing him n no signs of him at all....called mum but din pick up...onli called me back at 6+pm to tell me his grandma's leg is still painful so cant bring him to the bus....n cfm dat he'll come the next dae....

n tues became worst when we had a meeting after werk to find out dat our whole hols is quite burnt....event after event after event....symposium, trainings, camp, carnival, meeting wif parents, more trainings.....all back to back....no time fer breather....everyone can onli clear leave on the last 2 weeks of dec....sad....raj mentioned dat 2 operational heads will be selected fer sch n siti will go to dac as the operational head....n dat reali created a storm wif the other dac teachers....politics....while we were walking to the mrt stn, sal came n told me i tink it's gonna be u n yin hong....wad could i sae? nth's been mentioned yet...n i dun reali care fer it...cos it's just another shitty job....

i realli prayed n wished so hard dat B will be back on wed....n sure he did!! so happie....very!!! couldnt stop looking at him...luff tog...haa...went bedok reservoir by car...kelvin's car n bernard's (volunteer) car...best....3 students onli....P threw tantrum at the park man....took the 2 man, sal n me to lift him man....nono...drag him....poof...kena pinched at my arms....now i got flabbier arms....sobz...wif blue-black.....ouch....

was told yest morning dat mi n yin hong r the operational heads....just like wad sal speculated...she kept asking me if she was rite after my meeting wif raj n boss...."u'll noe when the time comes..." it's still better to hear frm them directly ba...dey gonna announce it tmr (fri)....can predict a war coming up....cos sal had been quite cold towards me todae....mabbe she wanted to draw the boundary....oh well....i dunno wad she felt bad at...mabbe P's tantrum, mabbe feeling sore, mabbe feel dat i'm hush hush bout it, or feel dat i'm gonna belong to raj n siti's grp soon....heck....werk is werk....if u wan to distance me as a fren cos of werk den i cant help it....can foresee mani wars coming up...reali...aft hearing bout lotsa untold secrets behind the scenes....suddenly felt my werkplace aint as 'simple' as it seems...there's much more to it...n one of boss's wishes is hope dat both of us can werk tog to boost the morale in the staff.....i supposed i can be the best person to do it....but i can also be the worst person at it....tings r gonna change....people r/s r gonna change....haiz....dunno to be happie dat my werk is being recognised, or dat i'm gonna be hated by most people soon.....

metamorphosis.
revolution.

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Monday, October 01, 2007Y

mi n the small ketupats....

went shopping fer hari raya decorations fer sch at geylang serai....

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some backtracking...
last week was slack i thot....cos no klass...not too mani reliefs...(i wonder issit cos of my letter to boss the other time....somehow siti was a little hesitant to ask me to do relief...) ended up i did so much of odd-jobs....the rest of the colleagues haf kinda regarded me as a reference pt fer almost everything.....so much so dat the most common phrases said to me were "eh serene, can u help me wif...." and "hey...thanks..."

from asking me where tings r placed, what to do fer practicuum, stand-in in klass fer awhile while dey go toilet/take tings, brainstorm fer camp, n the list goes on....friday realli reach the max man....when in one single morning, i had to assist a teacher in klass when she only had two higher functioning boys, where i had to teach pri sch maths n eng...den, pick up lotsa of phone calls, deliver lunch box to the canteen at changi general hospital cos one student fergot to bring his food n they were there eating.....den, a couple came to donate half a van of toys n i had to borrow trolley n deliver them up myself....dey were so kind....heard abt us thru 933...came all the wae frm jurong n rented a van to send the toys here....din look too well-to-do but dey were kind souls....had to show dem arnd the sch n explain wad on earth is autism....den comes afternoon where 2 students kip having tantrums n i was there to help in both...one boy hitting himself wif hand till his hand n forehead swollen, another ger shoving all the furniture in the klass...n when evening came, i turned into an usher at the choir concert....boss was the conductor...fund-raising fer the sch....was carrying the program notes to distribute n realised i took too mani so went out to put some back...n lo-n-behold hoo was to stand at the door except boss...."serene!", pointing at me.....i knew it...kena arrowed....asked his son to bring me to his dotter (the mc)..ask me help out at the prize presentation.....n i failed at such a simple task....the table where all the prizes were was at the side of the stage....she said dun bring to the centre of the stage....so asked me to walk to n fro....oh well....she announced the names so fast dat i din had time to walk back in time.....n i actualli dropped one of thos crystal-looking plastic (i guess) trophies....n the archbishop had to pick it upn fix a piece back.....felt damn malu man....haiz....wanted to dig a hole n jump in....but had to fake a smile....n when i walked back, boss reminded me dat i fergot to gif out the cards the students made....argh....another blunder.....ok...dat's quite enuff fer the nite...hopefulli boss wun target me the next time....*haf a feeling he din noe wad happened* oh wadeva......

n sat, i went fer piano lesson n realised i played worse n worse fer the concert piece i was gonna perform later....shucks....the more i practise, the more mistakes i haf....den had to HELP carry stuff fer my teacher to the auditorium at young musicians' society....phobia of dat place cos i took my dip exam there n failed....haiz....was at the receptionist area...HELP to mark attendance of the performers, n give out the program notes.....HELP to coordinate wif the buffet person (n in the process kena chidded by the person in charge of the auditorium)...my fren played well.....at least much better den me...cannot play at the speed she played....another fren brot a group of her students wif her....i had no students i can showcase....all lazi bums hoo dun practise....onli felt proud of my sis...she realli plays very well....to tink dat i used to play better den her when we were young....haiz....i felt my playing was very average....n too cautious....but glad dat i played a little better den in the morning at her hse....phew.....

went over to sc's place fer curry udon....n of cos the cooks r none other den sc n fk n helper ly....plus bartender shawn.....concocted a menu of 10 different shots n made us all drink....n cos i spilled some of it i got a few more shots as punishment....duhz.....never drank so much in my life....but i was still quite sober i wld sae....mabbe felt a little dizzy but very tired....at least i was much better den someone who started rolling on the floor, some whose faces turned red, n one hoo was walking in a str line n nearly knocked into the wall....went home at 1+ n woke up the next morning wide awake at 6+ even before my alarm went off....all readi to go teach piano....in fact i was much more awake den other sundays....i dunno y....tong3 all the wae till 10pm n knock out.....

super irritated wif my ex co-teacher again todae...she returned me the tasks i made fer the students....n out of courtesy i just say, "u dun nid it?" i mean i dun mind taking dem back of cos....n i actualli got snubbed rite in the face earlie in the morning...."it's ok...we got better ones...*smirk*" dat realli pissed me off....dun appreciate my werk den reject it nicely lar....no PR skills at all....pui! thot she was better oreadi...last week she actualli msg me n thanked me fer settling down the crying boy in her klass.....mabbe dat was all just part of the hypocrisy....

had another small disagreement wif another colleague....she's fierce man....regarding claims....she din had a receipt for claiming tings...cos frm market...supermarket sells one whole lettuce or sth but market sells smaller portion.....so in a wae, she's saving money fer centre...n i totally understand dat...told her w/o receipt cannot claim lar...cos finance departm sae one....just gg by the book n she got all flustered up....n when i left she go complain to another colleague....wadeva la....i'm just doing my job in approving claims....

mabbe i shld just kip awae frm all the talkings in the office n stay low-key.....my new co-teacher is here fer a week liao....n she's the pretty ger frm my psych cohort in nus la.....but too bad guys, she's attached....studied a yr in aust, werked in another autism sch b4...so hoping dat she's nice to werk wif la....n dat dae at the choir concert i met a project mate frm geog....n she turned out to be boss's son's gf.....the world is damn small.....

hoping to seeing deary B tmr....nid him to bring smiles to my face again....=]

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