my last dae at shalom ended on a sad note...R threw a tantrum which i haven seen b4....everytime he tantrums i wasnt arnd....now i get to see it n get a taste of it myself....he is my most docile student...felt guilty dat i cldnt help him even tho he told me his thumb was painful fer mani times....he was realli perturbed by it....all i did was pasted a plaster.....n obviously it din werk...he peeled it off...he suddenly ran out of the classroom after break...to the calming rm...n of cos i ran after him...another student was resting there....dat student refused to get out n even shouted at my student to "Get out!" even tho he saw him in a very upsetting state...R got even worse n started whacking me on the head...den some of my colleagues came running to my rescue..ran out to the main lobby area n started crying n resting on the sofa...n when my colleague T tried to calm him down he whacked us again....den he ran into class...which i was so scared of...cos he mite affect the rest....but he stood at a corner n stopped there covering his ears...still cldnt calm down....started whacking again....tis time on my back mani times...grabbed n dug his nails into our arms....head bang T, scrunched up her face, and pulled out strands of her hair.....felt so bad fer her....her face even kena scratched...bet the blue blacks will come on soon....managed to grabbed his one arm hoping dat someone else will grab his other swinging arm....no one managed to...n i got whacked somemore....till i gave instruction to grab his other arm...den we managed to pull him to the calming rm where he kicked n hit himself so hard...haiz....he kept crying.....haiz...heartache....
so in the end i din had a proper gdbye session wif my klass...cos i was toking to the dad n the grandpa....supposed to call the mum but i haven....shucks...shall do it tmr....sent my other kids off n one mother bought a big bouquet of flowers fer me....touched....it's so consoling....all my other colleagues din get aniting....but i guess cos dat family is more into formalities...high klass pple....so must show their gesture of appreciation....nevertheless....it made me felt better....a little....
in the afternoon i had B...he's such a sunshine boi....the whole time i was wif him he kept smiling n luffing....which can be v tiring....n like the volunteer said....it's infectious....the 3 of us kept smiling n luffing at each other fer no gd reason.....hahaha......but it did cheered me up....so wierd to haf a volunteer when i onli had one student n he was very manageable....but well....gd lar...at least someone to tok to lo.....but argh....his favourite song frm the sing-along CD is stuck in my head...."dey r dancing~dey r dancing~"
after werk met up wif my long lost pri sch fren who now werks in the same hospital as me as an occupational therapist.....we wanted to meet up ever since we knew we were werking in the same bldg....was nice to chat up to find out how each other is doing.....=)
next week shall be a new start....new klass...new co teacher....new system....new way of teaching....wad bothers me most is how to werk wif the new staff...she seems a bit aloof towards me the past few weeks....hardly tok....now haf to werk tog....todae's discussion seemed fine....but hard to tell yet lar....n besides she's been wif the boys fer the past week while i haven....new anxiety......
