ok. and so i've decided. and shall not think about it again.
but i had to wake up tis morning to discover a lump of soreness on my left arm. felt my arm breaking into ashes yesterday. the most painful grab. was back in my former class to relief my colleague. for the rest of the dae, B was happie. haven seen him smile fer the longest time. thanks to the stoopid ot. everytime kena becos B was 'tortured' when wif him and to return wif a foul mood. ouch....
sch hols over soon. 2 new students joining my klass. stress....
ends at 4:58 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007Y
S P L U R G E cannot believe i came home wif big bags of shopping.....faintz....
ends at 9:31 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007Y
back at werk todae....everyone almost couldnt recognise me cos i was wearing a skirt to werk....every other werking dae i'm so lok kok....todae change abit dey all started teasing me....we used to make it a point to wear skirts or dresses during sch hols wad....one colleague even offered to bring me out to meet guys if i'm not gg on a date todae...duhz....fri will be back to lok kok self again....cos i haf to relief klasses the whole dae!! poof....cos all other colleagues r on leave.....sianz....supposed to prepare fer klass on mon lor.....got new students leh....how can dey do tis to me.....had to stay back todae to finish up everyting man.....=S
ends at 9:26 AM
Monday, March 12, 2007Y
went high tea wif clarissa aka mm todae....was expected a quiet environment lo...but mariott was just packed wif pple....y??!! it's a mon afternoon k!! every1 dun haf to werk huh.....bleah....we're both into teaching...tho mine is a lil skewed....it's nice exchanging all the interesting stuff about our students....den went shop arnd fer skincare products...heh....we both realise we haf to take care of our skin le!!! haiz...wad to do....aging....sobz....den went into bookstore to browse arnd the books....haven felt so relaxed fer a long time...tis is realli life man....
ends at 9:19 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007Y
the declaration of independence states dat....we have the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happyness...quoted frm the movie....we haf the right to pursue happiness....but not happiness itself....cos happiness dun just fall on us....we gotta werk fer it.....but as we r pursuing it, r we realli happie??
it's tuff being a teacher in an autism sch.... when u try to balance the intrinsic motivators wif the extrinsic ones...
it's tuff being a piano teacher.... when u try to make tings understood n end up flaring up....
it's tuff being a good daughter.... when u haf to do wad u're told....
it's tuff being a good sister.... when u haf to double up as his tutor....
it's tuff to be nice to friends all the time.... when u noe u nid to say no to them at times....
it's tuff to bid dem goodbye.... when u noe dey r oreadi part of ur life....
so tired of being on an emotions rollercoaster fer the past week.....planning to use my off daes to tutor my bro n catch up on some werk....haiz....i realise i haf lesser n lesser time fer myself.....poof.....mabbe dat's wad the pursuit of happiness entails....without the pursuit part there will be no happiness....dis is the only wae i can comfort myself.....=]
ends at 9:42 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007Y
summary of my past week dat was like a rollercoaster ride...
mon>> went fer a farewell dnr wif all my colleagues n boss at sofra....wasnt feeling sad at all den dat wendy was leaving....
tues>> felt incompetent in handling my kids...
wed>> felt even more incompetent n tot of giving up...was hit lightly on the head several times by nick n smacked on the chest n face by jm....it din hurt as much on the outside den as my morale did....
thurs>> felt much better...at the very least, i was in control of the klass.....perhaps....mabbe cos we watched barney.....barney's my savior....
fri>> wendy's last dae....sad to see one of my kloser colleagues leave....we started out tog....we majored in the same arena....now she has left to venture out other routes.....wish her the best but still couldnt help it but felt tears in my eyes....esp when dear kenny gave her a farewell hug....so touching....*sobz*....realli felt alot on dat dae....toked to my boss regarding the nie course...."there's a possibility....there's a possibility...there's a possibility...." uncertainties again....hate the unsettleness in me....he said no nid to serve the bond if in any case i realli wanna leave....but den again...i dunno how long he'll be here too.....dunno if he'll even see me thru all dat....he's on contract basis.....went fer a dnr at my dad's company....sulking thruout....damn tired after the kent ridge park combined outing....was walking thru the canopy walk wif nick....my last dae wif him.....he is cute la...i haf to admit....as i was clearing his stuff away from my klassroom, it striked me dat i will miss him after all....tho everydae he's so difficult to manage....den at the dnr my piano students all started calling me one by one cos the next dae was their theory papers.....stressed.....took 3 daes leave next week.....i nid time awae....i nid time fer myself.....
ends at 9:25 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007Y
i tink i'm reali too stressed n tired todae....resulting in bad mood....slept a mere 3 hrs on a sat nite...cos i was marking papers....woke up earlie in the morning at 5.30am to pack all the books i nid to bring fer todae's lesson....gosh tink dey weigh up to 10kg man....suffering frm backaches oreadi....taught straight from 8am to nearly 4pm non stop......next sat's the students' theory exam....i nid to stress 4 times more den each of dem lo....wif 2 of dem sitting fer grade 6....stress like mad.....how m i gonna start my week off tmr?? felt as tho i din rested at all....plus tmr is such a long dae....gg fer dnr wif my colleagues cos it's farewell fer my fren's fren....sadz....low morale again.....n it seems dat some of my other colleagues r oso starting to feel stronger bout leaving.....if i sign the bond...i guess all my closer colleagues will haf been gone fer gd....sighz.....still doing my prep fer tmr....n tmr onli....poof....
ends at 6:53 AM
Saturday, March 03, 2007Y
thanks fer the bag qy, wj, lt, sar, rong n an....tho i chose it myself in a short 3hrs time....happened to see 2 of my other aj frens....such an ajcians dae...haa...back at home i received the lovely postcard wing sent....so fast man....all de wae frm germany in a few daes....tink he's the onli guy fren i noe hoo will send postcards when he's overseas, call at the airport b4 leaving (tho i din pick up according to him...oops...) n refuse to carry hp when overseas...tho everytime when we meet we r quite sarcastic to each other...heh...~dat's wad "french" r fer~quoted frm rong back in jc daes.....
