watched a documentary on channelnewsasia todae....it's called touch wood....focussing on OCD....obsessive compulsive disorder.....it realli makes me quite sure dat i haf ocd....there were 4 cases....one guy had to check everyting in his hse making sure they r all in place b4 he can leave home.....a lil like paranoia....had to check locks check fridge door to ensure nobodi came into his hse....another guy had voices in his mind which reminds him to do some awkward things...bite the window pane inside a glass so that his family member will not be involved in an accident....kinda schizo i feel....one young ger had to switch on the switches mani times, click her pen mani times, open n close her pencil case mani times......she said it was becos she felt dat it was like sth is gg to happen if she click it once....so she had to make sure nth is gg to happen....my students do some of tis stuff too....hmm....
another lady which i felt depicts much of me....had to wash her hands everytime she touches some dirty things.....she packs everyting in boxes n her hse is filled wif lots of boxes n books stacked up all over.....u may tink it sounds alrite but washing hands cos WE feel our hands are contaminated by the germs....i especially wash hands after touching newspapers, dusty stuff like switches, window, doors, shoes etc....even tho it's not directly dirty...i'll feel that the keys to the door r dirty cos my dad will touch them after he empties the dustbin....tings lidat la....i tink i realli haf ocd....sobz....realised it after i studied psych....but i tink it got worse after i started werking......if it wasnt until my student started washing hands repeatedly like me tho his hands werent dirty i will not haf bothered to fully acknowledge my behavior....now....i tink i dun deny it....trying to curb tis obsession.....gosh......
