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Wednesday, August 30, 2006Y

kauz....so scarie!!! reached home at 12 aft qian's bdae....2 guys took same lift as me....one malay alighted at 4th floor...another indian decent-looking guy pressed 16th.....but tis indian guy actualli followed me out of the lift at 11th floor....n chat at my doorstep....12 am lor!!! din even notice him walking behind me.....sae he frm choices magazine...hooever heard of tis mag man....sae it's fer teens....ask if i'm still in my teens....gathering teens' views n opinions on premarital sex.....sae can help other teens to realise their probs....blah blah blah.....kauz....outside my door lor....when i showed no interest....he left....but he saw which unit i live.....feel so traumatised now....cant help but feel he is a bad guy.....now so paranoid....draw my blinds b4 i switch on my lights n comp.....do i look like an ez prey or wad.....kauz....givin me the creeps......so scarie!!!!

ends at 9:37 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006Y

does crossing the path of a black cat realli brings bad luck?? todae i crossed one while i was on my wae to teach piano...

when i reached there...the mum said both the kids wanna stop lessons aft their exams....cos heavy werkload in sec sch....i dunno if it was a bad ting....i actualli expected tis dae to come sooner or later....every lesson dat i went i kinda prepared myself...cos i knew...i wasnt doing a gd job....plus they getting bzier...dunno if i shld feel happie or sad....happie cos fridaes i'll be free.....sad cos i will miss them (mabbe onli the sis)...plus less income....haiz.....

todae my prog head told me i write gd ieps (individualized education programs)...ask me to coach the 50-yr-old colleague....dunno it's a compliment or arrowing man...cos he no time to go thru wif her so ask me to do it....dat dae during meeting boss oso arrow me ask me present tog wif another colleague during the symposium 2....mite as well kill me man....i've got serious stage fright!!! argh.....stress.....

got off werk at 4pm todae...cos prog head tinks we had a ruff week....we sure did!!!! next week gg zoo....worse....how terrifying....starting to worrie man....

ends at 9:11 AM

Thursday, August 24, 2006Y

And I'm just Down

You left me with a note without a sound

I figured i must stop being such a child

You Never Know how much I been around

How My Heart just rounds of your down

I'll Be Your Teddy Bear

I'll Be Your Cloud

I'll Take you Round and Round

If you dont mind I can be your standing crown

Even if that means I drown

And maybe that will be my one last vow

ends at 5:14 PM

dunno how mani times it has been since i felt like crying ever since i started werk here....tis time round is another occasion....haiz...my case manager leaving us....tho i kinda expected her to leave even earlier...still...i tot our team was reali klose-knitted n werked well wif each other....all the fun...gossips...not fergetting the tuff times we've had....we kinda built tis organization frm scratch...n it's kinda disheartening to see pple leaving...it's not cos only of the case manager...but the emotions i've accumulated over the number of times pple quit....seems like ani sane or experienced person noe we shldnt stay long....at least it's kinda make me tink hard.....wanna clarify tings wif boss....but he alwiz not arnd...tho new colleagues coming in....i'm not sure if we'll still haf dat same rapport dat our team will haf....everytime someone new joins us...the dynamics change....lotsa tings change....

these few daes haf been extremely tiring....students r ALL problematic....one aft the other...4 hrs of sch n i felt exhausted....zr throwing tantrums again! aft so long....yest he was sensory....todae he was high, in extreme gd mood....t threw tantrum in a park n acted like some ah lian...kept crying n crying cos my colleague threw her packet of chips n drinks awae....she was in the "everyting-i-oso-dun-wan" mood...nobody n move her at all....not even nudge her...b2 has alwiz been a slow coach...these few daes he walk faster....(i dun mind dat at all!) b1 started squeezing n twisting my arm again aft mabbe a wk? came in todae n sobbed so hard till his eyes swollen...his toiletting skills realli....argh....nearly puked yest....kw started his chain of high-pitched screaming....unbearable....not to mention v hoo started shouting n grunting n pulling t's hair, smelling my hair, my colleague's hair....faintz.....too exciting a week man....

cut my hair over the weekend....super stoopid looking now....fringe soooo short dat i look super goon do....yest go color my hair dark purple wif red highlight....haiz....cannot salvage still....no wonder v started addressing me as Serene....no more Ms Serene.....i probably look like her klassmate now.....*sobz*

ends at 7:31 AM

Monday, August 21, 2006Y

yeah! finally settled the taiwan trip...vexed over taking leave....which airline...where to go...etc etc...haiz...to make tings ez....at an expensive cost....mi n yihui decided to go wif tour group....hee...okie...i hear sighs of disappointment...well....2 gers leh...later get lost how....save time on preparation werk....save travelling time...save all the trouble...but realli big puke blood la...tour package fer 7 daes $1149....gosh....must realli save up le....*heartache* but realli nid a break....perhaps when i return i'll b even more tired....hahaha....

realli hate it man....reshuffling again....now make me no mood to put in effort in my lesson....sianz....later do up plans fer student le den change student....waste my effort....irritating....gg outing tmr....yeah....can wear my new cap...hee....excited...just hope my right toe when swell up again....hurts man....

ends at 8:39 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006Y

woah....been a long time i updated...haiz...back to my old self again....

b2 just joined me....he makes me luff everydae....he gives me evil smiles creepy stares everydae....he makes me breathless by nagging "b2....blah blah blah", "b2....blah blah blah" everydae.....he's slow....which gives me a headache....my 2 other students r gan cheong spiders....now i got a slow cockroach....poof.....but life's reali getting more occupied wif him arnd....

todae felt reali sad fer my colleague.....she's frm the other klass...wif younger kids....todae one 13-yr-old guy plucked out bunch of her hair....scratched her face n arms....head banged her head wif his....gosh.....she was left wif scratches....dare not aggravate by saeing too much....scared she'll just break down n cry.....we all felt sad....not onli dat she's hurt....but oso failure to understand the student....failure to noe wad he wans....failure to predict wad's gg to happen....i wasnt at the scene....but i heard it all took place in a split sec....like it alwiz does....too fast fer reactions to take place.....alwiz tot the guy was mr nice-guy....he looks so kind....so mild....so lovable....gosh...he din wanted to do all these i'm sure....but i tink my colleague was being so strong.....if it were me....i'll be super depressed....not dat i wan to take it personally, but cant help it....haiz....wonder when's my turn....i hope never...i hope i can get to noe them well enuff b4 aniting happens....but sumtimes reality is not as such.....*pray hard*

heard more changes r gg on in the next two weeks again!!!!! irritating!!!! the only constant ting is change...how true.....esp in my organization....i dun wan to change klass or students again!!! i had a hard time drafting my plans fer dem....spending effort to noe their temperaments.....oh pls....another of my colleague left....cos she preferred to be wif kids....so she'll be at an orphanage....haiz....kinda disheartened everytime one person leaves....we were a team...a klose-knitted team....now everyone leaving....feel sad....but wish her all the best....cos dat's where she sees herself in...i'm glad my peer colleague has found where she is heading....while i'm still in the mist....foggy.....

ends at 9:38 PM