truth realli hurts.was tinking bout the qn fer daes....it's been buggin me tho i kept telling myself...whomever's idea it was to ask me to take over the new klass, as long as i'm happie wif wad i'm doing, i dun care where i'm allocated to....but atlas, cannot take the urge....had to ask my colleague todae....cos she's the one who assessed all the new students and was one of those hoo decided the arrangement....she said initially wanted to put FM (the 50 yr old colleague) and visu in the new klass....den dunno y ended up mi n visu....cot a bit here n there....cos we were walking to the mrt n it was so noisy arnd us....couldnt realli catch....she said "one no experience, one cant lead...but we'll just try out and see how lor....the new colleague who's coming may make more changes later on too...so all not cfm...." hmm....was pondering abt it....am i the one without experience or am i the one hoo cant lead? i tink probably the latter....but den again...is she referring to me at all in the ferst place? or FM and visu?? *confused* nevertheless, i shall try my best to handle the new kids....dey look realli cute....probably dat'll b my motivation....the same group of us were gossiping abt FM todae....so all of us had the same sentiments aft yest's meeting...FM realli left us all pissed off....she looks down on all of us...except the case manger.....we were all sharing our bit of her....conclusion: - always beat arnd the bush and is a realli good story teller...so long-winded dat even my long-winded boss cannot take it too....gave her a pass when it was her turn to tok...
- puts family b4 aniting else...tis one i still can understand
- very critical....likes to comment on wad we shld do when we all haf dat lil bit more experience den her...
- alwiz like to sae dat from her parent point of view, blah blah blah.....stop imposing all ur family rules to the students lar!
- everytime sae wanna discuss or tok to me abt sth casually....she'll just turn arnd n interrupt my werk....den i gotta entertain her by giving "yaya"s n fake smiles....den tok halfway...."ohoh....i gotta go ask ms kae (the case manager)" n just walks off lidat....pls lor!!! i'm spending time off my bz schedule to hear u crap n tis is the treatment i get.....-realised she onli does dat to me- grrrrr......
- yest came to comment dat we shld not do tis n dat...which was quite true....but the wae she puts across was realli annoying..."hey serene, since u r doing the curriculum, blah blah blah....u shld ask u noe....", "i realli find dat the content ms kae is teaching way tooooo difficult!!".....*side-track* realli hate the curriculum specialist ting dat boss is pushing me to be....got some green-eyed stares frm eva too....i feel...."cant u tell dey r trying to get u into curriculum? right frm the start you were oreadi given so mani subjects...probably boss got the impression from previous person-in-charge (just say senior lar...)" i knew the rest were a lil uneasy when mag showed me some favoritism....mabbe i was too sensitive....haiz...cant blame eva...she's just too out-spoken...
- back to FM....she's realli boastful...."my son-in-law is a doctor....", "my daughter-in-law blah blah blah..."
- dunno-act-noe.....dunno sae dunno lar....anihow gif wrong replies to parents n caregivers....realli must stop her from tokin to parents....lest she sae the wrong tings....she told one student's auntie "oh...the holidaes r here....u r realli going to get ur hands full...." wad the...how can she sae sth lidat to her?? where r ur professional ethics??
- "he smells of shit...i better walk awae....not gg to stand near him...", "she smells of urine...u all better check...." tis is the kinda comments she kept telling me the other times when bryan smells of shit when his fingers were full of shit....n when vanessa did not clean herself properly in the toilet....tho i dun like it too....but at least i wun sae it lar! shld just kip some comments to urself....
- drama queen....told the whole story of jackson frm mainstream sch...all the teeny weeny details dat happen.....now i noe most of jackson's gd frens in dat sch...and even the handicapped girl's mum....."tis is wad he'll sae u noe.....'i HATE the malay boys....i HATE the malay boys....' and he continues..." she used so much force to emphasize on the word hate lor.....plus actions...every single lesson she had to mention.....all the tings jackson did she had to sae.....come on la....jackson onli here fer 1 mth or so u got so much comments oreadi...how r we ever gg to finish the discussion on all the students??!! bad decision by us when we told her to share ferst.....argh.....
Note: When i refer to blah blah blah means i probably had switched off from her toking oreadi....
all of us deal wif FM in our own waes....some kip quiet n just nod....some argue wif her...some sae sarcastic remarks....some just gif her her due respect....some tried to understand her frm her pt of view....n me?? tend to tok rather coldly to her...sometimes ignoring her....but come to tink of it lar....it's realli quite mean of me (or us)....perhaps it's just a 50 yr old ting.....she's on the same freq as boss....she gave us the same prob we had with marg wae back just dat her prob hasnt manifested yet....i tink it'll realli be hard fer us to gel wif her...but still...we realli had to werk as a team......try.........
todae the music therapist heard some bad gossips frm her fren bout our centre...."ur centre got 7 students withdraw huh...." duhz....mabbe lor...if the students are not coming back frm their march hols....we onli haf 7 students lor.....one of which is still considering to come or not cos he leaves too far..... yew tee...duhz....more coming in apr lor....dun tell me in tis line oso got competition....but realli lo...there r not mani schs vying with us fer students wad....we take in graduands, rejects n waiting lists pple lor....
anu n eva found me amazing (in a positive wae) fer doing the presentation yest...."u did dat all on ur own??" "u realli manage to read the whole book?" hmm...doubting my ability.....haiz.....i doubt mine too....it wasnt realli helpful....waste my effort....
