todae was my last dae at the centre. it's only 2 weeks n i feel so so so attached to the students....feeling so down the nite before. did "ot" yest when me n my colleagues decided to draw cards for the trainers there. hard werk. poof. these 2 weeks, i've learnt dat...- i can get all the guys' attention dat i wan...which i lack....by everydae asking them to look at me.....(coz u nid to make them look at u b4 they answer) i do dat to ben n he'll look at me wif a cheeky or shld i sae cheekopeh smile....haa....
- i can almost ani time get to watch porno....dey tend to do some not so appropriate actions in class....i shall not go into the explicit details....
- some guys can haf such high sexual desires or thoughts...
- i m a sadist n like getting bullied....everytime bryan tries to touch me, i'll try to provoke him more....cos i wan him to be sick n tired of it.....
- the students actualli knew of each other's existence....some do care about each other tho dat was quite rare....dey can take care of each other too....like when james asked ben to hurry up finish his food....cos he is too rigid...lunch has to finish by 2....
- my strength now has greater usage....to fight the guys back....
- my face can anytime end up moisturized by students' spittum....
- my toes haf low pain thresholds....dey step on my toes without realising it....
- there are people hoo r more obsessed with objects than me....ze liang and james obsessed with dustbins, james and leonard obsessed with sharpening pencils and closing all doors and pushing in chairs...
- guys can be gd maids....people like ze liang, james and leonard...everyting spick n span....
- i can be so suay that everytime i bring students out it will rain.....
- everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.....even the naughtiest student has his lovable side.....
- heaven is quite fair....most of the students are born into rich families.....hmm...mabbe i shld start aiming their brothers....like bryan's bro!! heard he is in medicine, drives a sports car, and is very shuai.....haa...
- when u're nice to someone, dey will probably reciprocate....but during the process u may nid to haf some sacrifices or setbacks....when i try to be nice to bryan, he does behave a bit better...but dat is like after a few times of grabbing hands....
- size does matter....imagine 5 teachers pushing wee hong out of the class....
- size does not matter.....the biggest sized boy is afraid of the smallest sized boy even tho he bullies all others......
- proximity can promote liking....tis was from my psych text but the rumors that i heard abt hoo-likes-hoo in the class has proven them all....
- tv is a great invention....most of the students watch tv everydae....guess dat is their main hobby....just like me...hee....listen to wee hong and wenhao talk and u'll realise u're listening to the tv n radio respectively....and dey haf the effects of changing channels too....channel 5 to channel 8 to channel U to kidscentral....
- the smartest kid can be irritating....dey kip asking u y tis y dat....when some tings r rather unexplainable...
- everyting can be eaten....tissue with mucus, sand, dirt...
- having ear shit or eye shit or moles is not a problem....cos leonard wld pick them out for u....
- talking to urself can be self-entertaining....whenever i tok to them in different intonations and some baby language + singlish, n dey dun reply....i feel kinda stoopid....but it's a form of entertainment fer me...no choice....
- head of centre dun haf to be old man....mr tan is probably in his late twenties, early thirties...
- females can b as tuff as males....the trainers in my class r all females....i guess dey r the fiercest and most firm towards the students....
- u r wad u eat.....some students get to eat jap food, korean food....like ben...hoo stayed in jap n korea for a few yrs....except others like sherman hoo eats instant noodles everydae cos his mother wans him to learn making instant noodles....pple like wee hong hoo eats everyting....is like a big whale when he lies here n there on the mat....from wad they eat u can tell how rich they r, and how caring the families are...
- fer students hoo jumps around, u nid to buy metal ball to tie urself down....otherwise, u'll fly with him...
- every second u must be awake n eyes wide open...i just blinked my eyes n i saw my colleague wiping her face...i asked her wad happened...she said...oh, i just got spat on the face....poor ting....
- do wad u preach...when i asked james to buckle his seat belt, he did....when the van start moving, he pulled my seat belt n wanted to help me buckle...
- be well-read....cos some of them r quite knowledgeable....when dey see a bird, dey call it sparrow or pigeon, when dey see a butterfly, dey call it moth, when they hear the airplane, dey gimme the plane model.....diaoz...
- my art n craft skills r deteriorating....the trainers in my class r all so pro....some of them even did art in la salle.....
- never wear a fraying shirt...cos ben hoo peels everyting, including his skin, his fingers until all r bandaged up, will help u pull the strands out....n if u r wearing knitted wear....u will get the most 'in' midriff blouse....
- i haf to be more tolerant towards hygiene...now mucus, spittum, nose shit, eye shit r nth....but shit is still is!! puke...imagine leonard tried to clear the toilet bowl dat was choked wif shit wif empty hands....yucks....i heard it from the teachers la....din get to see it...
- dun say secrets or gossips in front of dem....u'll never noe hoo'll just pick up the lines n kip echoing fer u till the whole world noes....some actualli do understand wad u r saying tho....esp when u r toking bad abt dem....
- different pple haf different tastes...we all tink sherman very shuai but none of the gers like him...instead dey like others hoo r not of our tastes...
- smiles can win the game....whenever dey do sth wrong, dey just smile n u cant bear to scold dem animore...
- trainers must coordinate wif each other...otherwise, students get scolded fer nth....
- i must haf high threshold fer luffter n humor...cos when the students r getting scolded, dey sometimes reply in a very farnie n unexpected manner....haf to hold back ur smiling face so dat the student feels the seriousness...
- free time = havoc time....whenever dey haf nth to do, they'll find tings to attract attn...dat includes throwing tantrums or doing some small lil tings dat will end dem up in scoldings...
- i can b so touched n emotional by tings...in the cards fer the trainers, i wrote "i noe dey r not alone in their own lil worlds, cos u haf entered into them..." i tot dat was so touching...haa...tot of it on my wae back on the NEL...
- i realli haf short term memory....i nid to write everyting down for fear dat i'll just ferget them....so there's my journal n my blog....to make me relinquish the nice moments i haf wif the klass...
life is realli slow paced n relaxed at the centre....no stress...except when weilun keeps stamping his feet n shouting awae....dere r oso action-packed scenarios dat balances off the slow tempo....tis is realli gd life....i realli felt like a teacher there when ze liang kip calling me teacher serene (or sherene) fer nth...hear oreadi oso shuang....n some of the students dat i alwiz thot dey dun noe i exist or dunnoe my name said "gdbye teacher serene"....dey dun noe i will not b gg back again...i hope someone will ask...probably ze liang cos he kips track of everyone's attendance....so kaypoh....hopefulli he hasn't fergotten my name by mon...hopefulli the rest r curious y i'm not there on mon....even tho dey cant literally ask abt me....hopefulli dey will rem i once was wif them fer the 2 weeks...dat's all i request...realli wish dat dey will all grow up quickly so dat dey can come over to my centre...perhaps den i'll see them again....just haf to pray hard dey rem me....haa....quite difficult tho....dey r known as the emotionless lot...perhaps some trainers might come over to our centre fer a visit or even werk wif us in future...
haiz....mondae back at the office, i tink it's gg to b dreadful...doing paperwerk n drawing again....argh...the office will also b so empty wif 4 of us in the 'ward'....no nid to vy fer comps....enuff to go round...all the rest r at attachment....sad....back to long werking hrs again....guess we'll all appeal to the CEO dat we wan shorter hours...since all other centres end at 3 or 4....hee....
too bad i cant show the pics on my blog cos of confidentiality issues....otherwise u can see how cute dey all r....hee....anione who wanna b volunteers can let me noe!! =)