dat was then...their music alwiz sounded so horrible...wonder how dey managed to come up wif music like dat....yucks...could still rem i'll hide their bks when my music teacher came fer lessons...so dat she'll ferget i have those books and ask me to play other pieces instead...hee...
i guess dat was 5-6 yrs ago.....i've kinda lost touch of their music until lately when i was trying to go thru the songs dat i've played yrs ago...painstakingly....kinda fergotten all of them...sobz....tis time i felt an entirely different feel....not becos i played ani better...but i was more able to appreciate dem...it was different from the chopin mozart beethoven dat has been my long time favourites...i used to hate debussy's abstract form of art....making me so confused n blur aft the whole movement...sigh of relief man....schubert's was worse...the sound was awful...the chords used just refuse to blend nicely together.....
n while i was playing thru....it makes me wonder (hee..it's alwiz when i'm playing dat i reflect on life....) if dat was me being matured in my tinking or was i being plain fickle-minded.....i used to hate green....now i'm starting to add it into my collection of colors....i used to hate meat...now i'm a carnivore....and the list goes on....
if u asked me how much have i changed...i'll probably sae "it's the same old me".....but thinking back, i've changed quite a lot from hoo i used to b....but all these changes are taking so gradually dat i failed to notice dem all the while....y din i appreciate the tings arnd me back den? y din i tried to like dem? there r just too mani influences from the pple arnd us....the environment...the mindset beliefs values we haf just swayed along unknowingly....dat causes personalities to change as well....i dunno if dat's gd or bad...but there's no wae to stop changes from happening....
perhaps it is now dat i fully understand the meaning of cherishing wad u haf...cos once it's lost or changed....it's gone forever....time's not gonna turn back or wait fer us....n if chances come knocking at ur door...take a step back n think thoroughly if u wan to take the risk....(but tinking too much does make u do tings u regret as well...haa....) dun take too long tho...cos it mite affect the wae tings r....so u nid to b timely, accurate and lucky....lol....
i guess the difference betw being mature or fickle depends on how frequent u change...hmmm.....
